I feel awful
So he broke up with me last night. It was so awful..I liked him so much. I guess it wasn't meant to be though. He said he never wants to loose me, and he cares about me. He told me that and it made me feel better about it. I know he was sincere because I think it took a lot for him to say the things he said to me last night. I don't want to loose him either. I care about him way to much.
But oh well..shit happens. I'll just get over and move on. Although I think from now on, I'm going to set my standards a lot higher than I have been. He told me he thinks I deserved a lot more, and he wasn't giving it to me..or what I needed. He told me he's selfish like that. So thats ok. That's just the way he is, and I definately do want more than he was giving me. I'm just sad..still sad about it. I was just beginning to feel comfortable with him and not worry. But he said he was sick all week trying to figure out how to talk to me. I felt bad..that he did. I could've fallen in love with him if he let me. It would've been very easy to. But now I'm free so at least I know what to not want from someone I date next.
I actually hate dating. I like just being comfortable around someone, not the way I always felt nervous and had butterflies in my stomach like I did with him. Oh well..I'll get over it. I know I will.
But oh well..shit happens. I'll just get over and move on. Although I think from now on, I'm going to set my standards a lot higher than I have been. He told me he thinks I deserved a lot more, and he wasn't giving it to me..or what I needed. He told me he's selfish like that. So thats ok. That's just the way he is, and I definately do want more than he was giving me. I'm just sad..still sad about it. I was just beginning to feel comfortable with him and not worry. But he said he was sick all week trying to figure out how to talk to me. I felt bad..that he did. I could've fallen in love with him if he let me. It would've been very easy to. But now I'm free so at least I know what to not want from someone I date next.
I actually hate dating. I like just being comfortable around someone, not the way I always felt nervous and had butterflies in my stomach like I did with him. Oh well..I'll get over it. I know I will.