::proceeds to poke himself in the eye with a fork::

[skatepunkster]

i was talking on the phone with eliena.
and she called me gay.
"you think im homosexual?"
"no...gay as in lame. but i love you for it."
i think she was joking... well i hope so.
well anyway.
it sent my self esteem soaring waaay down.
im so RETARDED around girls. i swear.
she probably hates me now.
hell, i would hate me too.
im so fucking lame.