please dont break my heart.

[skatepunkster]

i had a dream about her so i called her when i woke up. [around 9am] she said she was on the phone with someone and to call her back in 15 minutes. i did. she didn't pick up. i went to church. it was nice. i was in a good mood after that. got something to eat and came home [i couldn't stand it at my cousin's]. called eliena again. she sounded confused. and there was sadness in her voice. i asked her what's wrong. she said she doesn't think it'll work out once she moves to san diego. "can't we just try to make it work?" she said we could. but one of us might get hurt. one of us? ergh. i hate getting fucked over by girls. maybe im just reading too much into things. but how can i not? she really is againt long distance relationships. a couple years ago her boyfriend [at the time] moved away. they stayed together for 5 months after that. he cheated on her. maybe she still hasn't gotten over that. i dunno. i need advice.
chloe, mike, lacy, jake, and myself went to a show tonight. the bands were alright. everyone seemed to have fun. afterwards, we went to denny's. then to mike's. i came home early though. im not really in a good mood. if she's gonna dump me, can't she just hurry and get it over with?