Another day
Today is yet another day. another day I sit around and wonder about the problems in the world and how insegnificant my problems are. Another day I wonder why I cant spell for shit. Another day full of hate. Punk Rock. Skating. Philosophy. all the stuff I normally do. Have you ever wondered about just random shit. like whats the fastest you have ever ran. or the highest you have ever jumped. or what death will be like. I think it will be like a dreamless sleep for all eternaty. or kinda like the period before you were born when there was just like nothing. I dont worry about death. It is inevitable, you cant stop it so why try. Just face it head on. I worry about not being remembered, I think that is why I try so hard skating. If we are not remembered its almost like you werent here at all you know. I just want to leave my mark on the world. And life is to short to live angry like. Which is why I dont hold grudges or get in fights. You only live once, you have to always keep this in mind when trying things. You may only get one opportunity so use it well. Try and learn as much as you can. Because not knowing is emptyness. I hate not knowing answers. Take a chance and like learn something. Something you will never need. Like I chose to learn about Quantum Physics. It is not a necessity to life to know that "nothing is real until observed" or something like that. but it is interesting. Why am I even writing this, no one even reads it. mabe im just searching for answers myself. The subject of love is one that often confuses me. I cant figure it out. It is the highlight of my life but at the same time the great deppression of my soul. and you also can mistake love for other things. Such as infatuation. I made this mistake recentlly. I have made it many times actually. But I think im to shallow to find true love. I was in love once though. as many of you know It became my worst...my lowest point in my life. The feeling you can fly, but your wings getting ripped off during flight. A free fall into oblivion. he I guess I am emo. And if there is Christian punk there must be emo punk. so I guess I am emo punk. Is it not natuaral in our heart to search for love? Are our efforts to find it in vein? Is there a god?
Because if there is he missed my prayrs growing up. I used to think of it as a test, like a test from god to stay withing the ten moral laws of god. But if you think about it really hard, as I have done many times, Dosnt the thought of god actually seem daft. There are also many things that prove his existance. And there is so much to take in for religion. The son of god rising from the dead to forgive our sins...Even though I dont live by "the good book" I try to be a good person. I can try right? Living in abilene isnt the best place in america to declare yourself atheist. There are so many hypocrits here. This one kid slapped me in the face for Saying god damnit two weeks later he was sent to TOC. What is wrong with this picture? Im not saying all christians are hypocrits, Im just saying abilene isnt a good place for me. The separation of church and state is becoming narrower and narrower. By the time Im thirty I plan on being in jail for not studying the bible. Well thats a dramatization. But you guys know what I mean. Mabe god is just another way of people to look for love. It is also a way to face death. How would you describe your life? If you read it on paper would you like it. I dont think I would like mine. There is too much hate everywhere in my life. Even outside of my life, I see my friends, Noel in particullarly, all really genarally good people, but someone somewhere got mad that she was happy and then jealos and made a hate club. That is really fucked up. But welcome to the world. an increasingly hateful place. The crimerate is going up. Hatered is up. We are all brothers in this place. Like it or not there had to be a first Homo Sapian. Therefore we are all realated distantly, and this is true if you beleive in god or not. So why cant we learn how to love? Because hate is more contageos than love. It is proven that it takes 20 good things to be said about you before you forget one bad thing someone says. I think that Noel is going to be sad for a while. and I feel for her becase these people are ruining all the good things she has going for her. for instance she picked up skateboarding, and now she doesnt want to skate anymore for some reason. Noel rock on and keep doing your thing. People will realize that you are cooler than them eventually...
Because if there is he missed my prayrs growing up. I used to think of it as a test, like a test from god to stay withing the ten moral laws of god. But if you think about it really hard, as I have done many times, Dosnt the thought of god actually seem daft. There are also many things that prove his existance. And there is so much to take in for religion. The son of god rising from the dead to forgive our sins...Even though I dont live by "the good book" I try to be a good person. I can try right? Living in abilene isnt the best place in america to declare yourself atheist. There are so many hypocrits here. This one kid slapped me in the face for Saying god damnit two weeks later he was sent to TOC. What is wrong with this picture? Im not saying all christians are hypocrits, Im just saying abilene isnt a good place for me. The separation of church and state is becoming narrower and narrower. By the time Im thirty I plan on being in jail for not studying the bible. Well thats a dramatization. But you guys know what I mean. Mabe god is just another way of people to look for love. It is also a way to face death. How would you describe your life? If you read it on paper would you like it. I dont think I would like mine. There is too much hate everywhere in my life. Even outside of my life, I see my friends, Noel in particullarly, all really genarally good people, but someone somewhere got mad that she was happy and then jealos and made a hate club. That is really fucked up. But welcome to the world. an increasingly hateful place. The crimerate is going up. Hatered is up. We are all brothers in this place. Like it or not there had to be a first Homo Sapian. Therefore we are all realated distantly, and this is true if you beleive in god or not. So why cant we learn how to love? Because hate is more contageos than love. It is proven that it takes 20 good things to be said about you before you forget one bad thing someone says. I think that Noel is going to be sad for a while. and I feel for her becase these people are ruining all the good things she has going for her. for instance she picked up skateboarding, and now she doesnt want to skate anymore for some reason. Noel rock on and keep doing your thing. People will realize that you are cooler than them eventually...