Anti is the only social I wanna be...
Ever have those days where, from the moment you wake up, you're anti-social. Like, you haven't even slid off the bed yet, and you have this overwhelming feeling of "don't talk to me today?" That's me. Today. Right now.
It's difficult because then you have to go to work and are forced into a social situation that you want to just run screaming from, but you can't. It's like being made to eat your peas before you can leave the dinner table. It's an uncomfortable, forced feeling of niceness. I don't want to be nice today. I just want to be left alone.
So you send the vibe out - the "don't talk to me" vibe. You keep your head down, you type furiously on your keyboard, you try to looked engrossed in some project, all to avoid vapid and meaningless "hi's," "how are you's," and plastered on smiles. But it doesn't always work. There's always some person in your office that smells the "don't talk to me" vibe all the way on the other side of the building and makes it a point to go all CSI on you and figure out exactly what's bugging you, so they can "help." But you don't need help. You don't want help. You just want to be left alone.
It goes something like this:
"Good morning!"
Don't look up. "Hey."
"How are you?"
"Fine."
"Everything okay?"
"Yep."
"You sure?"
Glance up. "Uh huh."
"You don't sound okay."
"I'm fine. Really."
"How's your weekend?"
"Good."
"Do anything?"
"Nope."
"Are you sure everything's okay today?"
Sigh. "Positive."
"Because if it's not, you can tell me."
"I'm sure."
"You just seem a little down..."
"Nope. I'm perfect."
"You don't sound perfect..."
OMG, shut the hell up!!!! is all I can think in my head as I pretend to not be anti-social in this feel good tirade of get-me-to-crack-and-spill-my-life-story-to-nosy-office-worker time.
I'm just feeling introverted and silent today. Nothing is wrong. I'm not having a crisis. I'm not planning the demise of my co-workers or plotting to overthrow the government. I just woke up feeling not so social and want to keep to myself. So DEAL WITH IT.
It's difficult because then you have to go to work and are forced into a social situation that you want to just run screaming from, but you can't. It's like being made to eat your peas before you can leave the dinner table. It's an uncomfortable, forced feeling of niceness. I don't want to be nice today. I just want to be left alone.
So you send the vibe out - the "don't talk to me" vibe. You keep your head down, you type furiously on your keyboard, you try to looked engrossed in some project, all to avoid vapid and meaningless "hi's," "how are you's," and plastered on smiles. But it doesn't always work. There's always some person in your office that smells the "don't talk to me" vibe all the way on the other side of the building and makes it a point to go all CSI on you and figure out exactly what's bugging you, so they can "help." But you don't need help. You don't want help. You just want to be left alone.
It goes something like this:
"Good morning!"
Don't look up. "Hey."
"How are you?"
"Fine."
"Everything okay?"
"Yep."
"You sure?"
Glance up. "Uh huh."
"You don't sound okay."
"I'm fine. Really."
"How's your weekend?"
"Good."
"Do anything?"
"Nope."
"Are you sure everything's okay today?"
Sigh. "Positive."
"Because if it's not, you can tell me."
"I'm sure."
"You just seem a little down..."
"Nope. I'm perfect."
"You don't sound perfect..."
OMG, shut the hell up!!!! is all I can think in my head as I pretend to not be anti-social in this feel good tirade of get-me-to-crack-and-spill-my-life-story-to-nosy-office-worker time.
I'm just feeling introverted and silent today. Nothing is wrong. I'm not having a crisis. I'm not planning the demise of my co-workers or plotting to overthrow the government. I just woke up feeling not so social and want to keep to myself. So DEAL WITH IT.