It can't end
I just learned that something very important to me, something that I have devoted the last 6 years of my life to, something that owns my heart more than anything on this planet ever did, might be coming to a screeching end very, very soon. And I feel my heart being torn out of my chest as I write this. This possible ending is the culmination of years of apathy and abuse by others who didn't give a damn about its existance. This apathy and abuse forced me to step in and try to clean up the mess other people started. But it's all crumbling through my fingers. I don't know what to do to stop it...