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I am sittign here eating and apple.
Last night I had a conversation last night that made me realize twhat kind of man I am.
I am the kind of guy who will wait around till forever if I find that one thing worth waiting for...
however, I think its time for me to start to turn and walk out the door, but as I walk through, I will not close it..
Today I took a big step. It was hard but, I put on my fav. band, cranked it up, and got a box.
I went around my collecting little things from the past and put them in this box. I washed my sheets that were stained with so many memories, took down pictures, replaced them and put a poster wheer the frame once hung. I put my bed in a difrent corner, re arranged my room, getting pictures developed to put them in this box, put away my grad ring and duct taped a single book shut, so I can never read its contents until there is an appropriate time and place.
I wrote my last poem, and i know its weird because people will read this entry, but i need to get it out...
Tears form in the corner of my eye
You are truly the only person that can make me cry
because, I knwo you can see right though me
And I will blame myself
no matter what happens
Holding on to what I thought would keep you by my side
everythgin I look at
everythgin I touch
is stained with memories of you
A tear falls down my cheek
holding on to what I thought would keep you by my side
When you left
you took a piece of me
you took back the piece that you once completed everythgin with
And yet I stay strong
no sleep tonight
I will keep writng as the pen ink fades
I keep finding myself In this circle
an on going race
between my heart and my head
So why does it always seem
taht every time i turn around
I fall all over again
And I must confess
I'm not expectign
anythgin from you
holding o to what i thought would keep you by my side
And I know its not to get away from me
you just needed a change in scenery
Try hard to hide
that its killing me
holdign on to what i thought would keep you by my side
I know its not what you wanted
buts its funt o pretend
we all get lost
in our make believe
roll over
to my side once more
anotehr sleepless night
holding on to what i thought would keep you by my side
Well this boy is now getting ready to go and finish his half sleeve... I love my tattoo dates with Kevin =)
Chest piece is startign next..........
*still eating this apple
Last night I had a conversation last night that made me realize twhat kind of man I am.
I am the kind of guy who will wait around till forever if I find that one thing worth waiting for...
however, I think its time for me to start to turn and walk out the door, but as I walk through, I will not close it..
Today I took a big step. It was hard but, I put on my fav. band, cranked it up, and got a box.
I went around my collecting little things from the past and put them in this box. I washed my sheets that were stained with so many memories, took down pictures, replaced them and put a poster wheer the frame once hung. I put my bed in a difrent corner, re arranged my room, getting pictures developed to put them in this box, put away my grad ring and duct taped a single book shut, so I can never read its contents until there is an appropriate time and place.
I wrote my last poem, and i know its weird because people will read this entry, but i need to get it out...
Tears form in the corner of my eye
You are truly the only person that can make me cry
because, I knwo you can see right though me
And I will blame myself
no matter what happens
Holding on to what I thought would keep you by my side
everythgin I look at
everythgin I touch
is stained with memories of you
A tear falls down my cheek
holding on to what I thought would keep you by my side
When you left
you took a piece of me
you took back the piece that you once completed everythgin with
And yet I stay strong
no sleep tonight
I will keep writng as the pen ink fades
I keep finding myself In this circle
an on going race
between my heart and my head
So why does it always seem
taht every time i turn around
I fall all over again
And I must confess
I'm not expectign
anythgin from you
holding o to what i thought would keep you by my side
And I know its not to get away from me
you just needed a change in scenery
Try hard to hide
that its killing me
holdign on to what i thought would keep you by my side
I know its not what you wanted
buts its funt o pretend
we all get lost
in our make believe
roll over
to my side once more
anotehr sleepless night
holding on to what i thought would keep you by my side
Well this boy is now getting ready to go and finish his half sleeve... I love my tattoo dates with Kevin =)
Chest piece is startign next..........
*still eating this apple