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wow... WEIRD fucking day..
worked...it wasnt bad, but I still hate it.
But, when I got out, I turned my cell phone on and found that Mrs. Byzet called me.. and for all you who dont know who Mrs. Byzet is... shes ANDYS mom. yeah thats right. I didnt know what was going on so I called her back. Apparently Andys family were on there way to Maine, and stopped in RI to get lunch. I was wicked excited to hear from Becky, so I said I'd meet them at Chellos and say hello ...then realized what I was getting myself into. Didnt even think that Andy was going to be with them... not only him... but his gf. The WHOLE ride from Coventry to Warwick I wanted to puke. I think I was more nervous seeing him today, then I was the first night we met. Made it to Chello's without any accidents.lol. THEN.. it was time to face my biggest fear of the past year and a half.... seeing Andy again...not only him but having to meet the girl that took him out of my life. I dont know how I did it without crying. all i know is it hurt real bad. I mean, I love Jay more than anything and would never change a thing in my life... except the fact that I lost the person I will never lose feelings for. oh yeah ps. Jay went with me cuz I thought it would make me feel less weird going, but nope made it worse in my eyes. sigh..
I think it was such a big shock cuz I never thought I'd see him again. it just hurt how NOTHING was said between us.. AT ALL. just a simple look in the eyes and nod. Im happy that he's happy, it just would of been nice to hear a simple 'hello, how are you?
ok im done ranting
Alycia
worked...it wasnt bad, but I still hate it.
But, when I got out, I turned my cell phone on and found that Mrs. Byzet called me.. and for all you who dont know who Mrs. Byzet is... shes ANDYS mom. yeah thats right. I didnt know what was going on so I called her back. Apparently Andys family were on there way to Maine, and stopped in RI to get lunch. I was wicked excited to hear from Becky, so I said I'd meet them at Chellos and say hello ...then realized what I was getting myself into. Didnt even think that Andy was going to be with them... not only him... but his gf. The WHOLE ride from Coventry to Warwick I wanted to puke. I think I was more nervous seeing him today, then I was the first night we met. Made it to Chello's without any accidents.lol. THEN.. it was time to face my biggest fear of the past year and a half.... seeing Andy again...not only him but having to meet the girl that took him out of my life. I dont know how I did it without crying. all i know is it hurt real bad. I mean, I love Jay more than anything and would never change a thing in my life... except the fact that I lost the person I will never lose feelings for. oh yeah ps. Jay went with me cuz I thought it would make me feel less weird going, but nope made it worse in my eyes. sigh..
I think it was such a big shock cuz I never thought I'd see him again. it just hurt how NOTHING was said between us.. AT ALL. just a simple look in the eyes and nod. Im happy that he's happy, it just would of been nice to hear a simple 'hello, how are you?
ok im done ranting
Alycia