unreasonable man.

[skarykitie]

we fight and curse.

my mom heard there was a fire
and has been leaving messages on my phone all day
to see if i died in it.
it seems touching.
it's not.
she doesn't care or show concern when it's important.
i will not give her the satisfaction of knowing i'm breathing fine.

all of the sudden i feel like crying.
all of the sudden i feel vulnerable.
all of the sudden i am far too overwhelmed.

i don't have time.
for anything.
i have to rush.
i cut out sleep.
i try.
i try.
i try.

i am tired.
of school
and work
and commitments
and blah
blah blah.

time is crawling.

help.