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*sighs* well thankfully relay has been offically over for a couple of days now, and let me say that ive been actually sleeping in the nighttime.. also thanks to sleeping pills.. its really sad that i havta drug myself to sleep because nothing else really works. even though relay is over, more things are starting to emerge that im gonna havta deal with.. a HUGE research paper, SATs, ACTs, joies wedding (which i swear is the only bloody thing that is discussed in my house.. which gets really annoying after a while specially if im trying to talk to my parents.. a bit more about that later) although, on a lighter note, only less than 3 weeks until hawktown, its gonna be soooooo mcuh fun!! im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited, and i know lauren is too.. haha. yeah and then THE BLOCK TRIP!!!!! im ridiculously psyched about that.. i feel bad though beacuse my parents havta pay this stupid ass late fee that EF tours sent us because the STUPID school board took like 3 months to approve the trip.. i hate the school board. they make me really angry. i cant wait until i am free of them and their stupid decisions..
yeah i decided a couple days ago that i am really gonna try hard to fulfill my dream and moving back to the east coast for college. i was thinking either new york or new jerzy considering i used to live there and pretty much was in NJ a lot and completely fell in love with it two summers ago when i visited it again. i talked with my teacher and she suggested Rutgers University in New Jerzy, i checked it out.. seems really nice, very expensive though, i would have to get a hella lot of scholarships if i wanted to even CONSIDER applying to it.. thats another thing i know i have to accomplish is actually believing that i have a slight chance to get into the college.. i wanna move away from here so badly, im not sure how many of my friends actually understand how much i HATE it here.. i wanna get out. i dont like conservative gilbert.
haha i bought the new lacuna coil cd today and i havent stopped listening to it since the moment i got it.. its soo good!! its gonna be my cd obsession for a while.. i cant wait to go to ozzfest this summer to see them, i just havta find people that would want to actually come with me.. i know i know i said im gonna start saving up my money.. i have, i really have. i opened up two accounts.. one for all saving.. which i have, and one for spending.. im getting there!!
alright so about my sisters weddding, i mean i cant be any more happy for her but its driving me crazy.. the other day i was trying to talk to my mom about something actually important and she kept ignoring me because she kept talking about "joie this, and joie that.." seriously, i get it, my sister is getting married but can someone just listen to me for like 5 minutes!! that was all i was asking for.. and even when i dont wanna talk to anyone in particular, i hear them arguing about the wedding.. and most of the time it happens when im trying to sleep or do homework, it DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! i feel bad for my sister sometimes..
well i better be going.. im slightly tired, maybe i wont havta drugg myself to sleep... lets hope not, i bet what im doing cant be good for my body.. goodnight everyone!!
yeah i decided a couple days ago that i am really gonna try hard to fulfill my dream and moving back to the east coast for college. i was thinking either new york or new jerzy considering i used to live there and pretty much was in NJ a lot and completely fell in love with it two summers ago when i visited it again. i talked with my teacher and she suggested Rutgers University in New Jerzy, i checked it out.. seems really nice, very expensive though, i would have to get a hella lot of scholarships if i wanted to even CONSIDER applying to it.. thats another thing i know i have to accomplish is actually believing that i have a slight chance to get into the college.. i wanna move away from here so badly, im not sure how many of my friends actually understand how much i HATE it here.. i wanna get out. i dont like conservative gilbert.
haha i bought the new lacuna coil cd today and i havent stopped listening to it since the moment i got it.. its soo good!! its gonna be my cd obsession for a while.. i cant wait to go to ozzfest this summer to see them, i just havta find people that would want to actually come with me.. i know i know i said im gonna start saving up my money.. i have, i really have. i opened up two accounts.. one for all saving.. which i have, and one for spending.. im getting there!!
alright so about my sisters weddding, i mean i cant be any more happy for her but its driving me crazy.. the other day i was trying to talk to my mom about something actually important and she kept ignoring me because she kept talking about "joie this, and joie that.." seriously, i get it, my sister is getting married but can someone just listen to me for like 5 minutes!! that was all i was asking for.. and even when i dont wanna talk to anyone in particular, i hear them arguing about the wedding.. and most of the time it happens when im trying to sleep or do homework, it DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! i feel bad for my sister sometimes..
well i better be going.. im slightly tired, maybe i wont havta drugg myself to sleep... lets hope not, i bet what im doing cant be good for my body.. goodnight everyone!!