The Holidays
The Holidays are here, it's that speical time of year. lol. i'm at work. work sux. i hate it. but it brings in the benjamins. i'm going to see my boyfriend after i get out of work, because i miss him and i think we've been neglecting eachother. seriously. MAINLY cuz of work. that's what i keep telling myself anyways. i'm crazy. i can't believe i let myself just so easily fall in love. i'm so stupid. i should have just stayed chillin' and never had a boyfriend these past two years. i would have been better off. no drama at least. no jealously.. no untrusting bullshit. how could something that feels so good, also feel like such a waste? don't get me wrong. i love chris with all my heart. i love him and i want to be with him. but when we do fight. it really is gay. i hate to hear him talk ugly to me and i hate talking like that to him. a lot of time i know that i'm acting like a baby with him.. and i KNOW it has to annoy him... but then there are times where he is acting the SAME way. it's crazy... like today. i've been thinking about love a lot and that it's a compromise. if you love someone.. you make it work. if something isn't working... you try to work it out. The other day i tripped on Acid with my friends and of course when i told chris, he didn't like it. but i was PISSED at him.. when he did it.. so i totally understand why he didn't like it. so i was all sad for a second and then my friend Amanda was like, it's okay claire.. and she put on this song .. as SAD song.. where this girl is talking about how hard she fell in love with someone and how their whole relationship was a big o'lie. and it was just crazy. it's called hit'n run by the horrorpops. it made me fucking cry. i wouldn't have normally cried. but you know how acid just intensifies everylittle things, feeling, or emotion. i listened to the song and felt my heart break. it sucked. then a few min. later he text me saying. that he loves me and for me to be careful and all that stuff. i felt 100% better. relieved. i love him. CLAIRE LOVE'S CHRIS!