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I love how I can make this private and not a soul will know I have made it private, they'll never even realize I have a blog.
I am a pitiful human being. I need to stop feeling so sorry for myself and getting myself down. I'm such a needy person. I just want to cry, but I don't because I know it is STUPID, and I shouldn't cry, so it just ends up hurting me more and more.
WHY DO I DO THIS.
Ever since that one big fight, I'm like this. I'm doing my best to not call you, and wait for you to call me unless you tell me to call you.
You called last night like you promised, and you promised to call when you wake up. I'll hold you to that. Not once have you ever broken a promise. I admire that. So there should be no reason as to why I am freaking out.
That scares me, I don't want to lose you to that. I don't want to be pressured by that. I am not the biggest party person
I just get upset with myself around that because I can't bond with you on that level.
I want my boyfriend back....
The one who texted me and said he missed me, the one who drove at 3 in the morning with a rose and a teddy bear to put on my car because he screwed up. Where was that after you drunkenly broke up with me.
Where's that when I'm stressed, I really want to just cry while you hold me and know things are okay, so I can let it all out.
Maybe I'm just being crazy. I should stop. I really should. It's stupid and I will not push you away like I did with Tristan. I won't do that.
I don't want to lose someone again because of my personality flaws...
I am a pitiful human being. I need to stop feeling so sorry for myself and getting myself down. I'm such a needy person. I just want to cry, but I don't because I know it is STUPID, and I shouldn't cry, so it just ends up hurting me more and more.
WHY DO I DO THIS.
Ever since that one big fight, I'm like this. I'm doing my best to not call you, and wait for you to call me unless you tell me to call you.
You called last night like you promised, and you promised to call when you wake up. I'll hold you to that. Not once have you ever broken a promise. I admire that. So there should be no reason as to why I am freaking out.
That scares me, I don't want to lose you to that. I don't want to be pressured by that. I am not the biggest party person
I just get upset with myself around that because I can't bond with you on that level.
I want my boyfriend back....
The one who texted me and said he missed me, the one who drove at 3 in the morning with a rose and a teddy bear to put on my car because he screwed up. Where was that after you drunkenly broke up with me.
Where's that when I'm stressed, I really want to just cry while you hold me and know things are okay, so I can let it all out.
Maybe I'm just being crazy. I should stop. I really should. It's stupid and I will not push you away like I did with Tristan. I won't do that.
I don't want to lose someone again because of my personality flaws...