I fucking hate math
well, its started. I wasn't ready, but since when does that matter. Chris met us at the beach tonight. It was the drum circle. He, AGAIN, refused to dance with me. I tried not to let it ruin my night...wasn't going to start (THE conversation) until i was ready. But Chris called me once he was home and asked me what my problem was. So i had to talk about it even though i wasnt done sorting my thoughts. That was such a hard conversation.
I knew i would never be able to make him understand. He thinks its "just a minute detail". He won't listen when i say that his refusal to dance is simply indicative of an aspect of his charicter that i can't stand. It is just one manifestation of the ten percent of Chris that i hate. I know that no one is perfect, i wouldn't expect it of a relationship either. I'd say chris and i are 80% compatable. Apparently that isn't enough for me to love him completely and without reserve.
And the funny part is, the one man i can't forget...the one who no one else ever measures up to.... I am probably only 60-70% compatable with...but him i love totally and unabashedly. But that makes no sense? well, yeah it does cause the parts that are compatable are the things i find important, and those that don't work...mean nothing to me. But with chris, the problem is that the parts that are not compatable are the most important to me.
so i guess its done....i'm sure it will be extremely hard and then take quite a while for the dust to settle... but here it goes.
So far....this doesn't really hurt, now that its started, i just want it to be over.
I knew i would never be able to make him understand. He thinks its "just a minute detail". He won't listen when i say that his refusal to dance is simply indicative of an aspect of his charicter that i can't stand. It is just one manifestation of the ten percent of Chris that i hate. I know that no one is perfect, i wouldn't expect it of a relationship either. I'd say chris and i are 80% compatable. Apparently that isn't enough for me to love him completely and without reserve.
And the funny part is, the one man i can't forget...the one who no one else ever measures up to.... I am probably only 60-70% compatable with...but him i love totally and unabashedly. But that makes no sense? well, yeah it does cause the parts that are compatable are the things i find important, and those that don't work...mean nothing to me. But with chris, the problem is that the parts that are not compatable are the most important to me.
so i guess its done....i'm sure it will be extremely hard and then take quite a while for the dust to settle... but here it goes.
So far....this doesn't really hurt, now that its started, i just want it to be over.