Something new...
For one...I'm posting.I guess it is time to start again. *grin* People (you know who you are!) keep bugging me, so here it is.
I have been processing my life as of late. It is a flex between scary, fun, new, anguishing, hard, weird,magnificent,tearful and growing to name just a few.
Wow!
Being asked recently to give up space (AKA don't be here) to my Sidhehaven family was really hard. I understand the need for it, but that was one of two places I called my home. I am feeling a great deal of sadness and loss of the people, the place, and the feeling of home. Mix all of those together and there have been more than of few dark moments in my head and heart. I initially responded to someone else's anger,and reacted with my own hurt. Today I am not vacant for any reasons other than love and respect. It is a hard place, but a clean one.
I have to say that I appreciate all the people that have lent support and given me a shoulder or ear as of late. I cannot express the gratitude that I feel to not be facing these changes alone.
If I have not said it out loud, all of you are loved and appreciated. I hope to be able to return such touching kindness to each of you because of how wonderful all of you as you have been to me.
You were beautiful surprises.
You humble me.
Thank you.
For Two on the new... was getting invited to Emerald Grove and their Beltane ritual.It was an amazing bunch of people, a few of which I had known in a previous life,and had not seen in about a decade.
Emerald Grove was just amazing! They are very warm and welcoming and it was a great place to be.
It was raining so hard when we got there that I was half soaked and thinking this was going to be a very long,cold, and wet night.
Weather witch you are a superstar!
By the time that we had mingled, eaten,and listened to a very nice live pagan choir performance the rain had stopped.By the time ritual started, the clouds had moved away and Mama Moon was shinning in all her glory.
It was beautiful.
Then I headed home instead of sleeping on a floor,(better part of valor I think) and had a great night sleep in my soul eating bed.
It has been good for me to have my house to myself as of late. I never thought I would enjoy being alone at home, but I am! It is cool!
Today the sun is shining and the lawn mower knows my name...
My heart is lighter today, and I am glad.
I have been processing my life as of late. It is a flex between scary, fun, new, anguishing, hard, weird,magnificent,tearful and growing to name just a few.
Wow!
Being asked recently to give up space (AKA don't be here) to my Sidhehaven family was really hard. I understand the need for it, but that was one of two places I called my home. I am feeling a great deal of sadness and loss of the people, the place, and the feeling of home. Mix all of those together and there have been more than of few dark moments in my head and heart. I initially responded to someone else's anger,and reacted with my own hurt. Today I am not vacant for any reasons other than love and respect. It is a hard place, but a clean one.
I have to say that I appreciate all the people that have lent support and given me a shoulder or ear as of late. I cannot express the gratitude that I feel to not be facing these changes alone.
If I have not said it out loud, all of you are loved and appreciated. I hope to be able to return such touching kindness to each of you because of how wonderful all of you as you have been to me.
You were beautiful surprises.
You humble me.
Thank you.
For Two on the new... was getting invited to Emerald Grove and their Beltane ritual.It was an amazing bunch of people, a few of which I had known in a previous life,and had not seen in about a decade.
Emerald Grove was just amazing! They are very warm and welcoming and it was a great place to be.
It was raining so hard when we got there that I was half soaked and thinking this was going to be a very long,cold, and wet night.
Weather witch you are a superstar!
By the time that we had mingled, eaten,and listened to a very nice live pagan choir performance the rain had stopped.By the time ritual started, the clouds had moved away and Mama Moon was shinning in all her glory.
It was beautiful.
Then I headed home instead of sleeping on a floor,(better part of valor I think) and had a great night sleep in my soul eating bed.
It has been good for me to have my house to myself as of late. I never thought I would enjoy being alone at home, but I am! It is cool!
Today the sun is shining and the lawn mower knows my name...
My heart is lighter today, and I am glad.