16 Days until pain so intense the world will hear my scream
Today was Tubby's birthday,
I couldnt even say happy birthday to her..I have something so important to tell her that it would crack the very foundation that me and her built upon..because it took me two years to figure out..
She blocks my screen names..and ignores my messages...
So I cant say much to her..she just flat out will not talk to me..Im so sad..that all I can do is drink..Is this what its gonna be now..Me drinking alot again..cause since the whole thing started all Ive been doing is drinking...and sleeping between jobs,probation and such
and now this?...
Two years in a row she wont be here for my birthday..
Shes not going to talk to me anymore..and I ask myself..How much more painful can my life become..Ive been through it all,Drugs,Booze,Fights,Prison,Deaths
Now the loss of my best friend..
I know its my fault..I crossed the line..
But if your reading this..How far will you go to protect a loved one?..
Claire did something similar for Paul while he was in the hospital..I was there when she did it..It cannot be denied..
16 days until my birthday and Im not looking forword to it....
I love Tubbs dearly..Life just isnt the same without her in it..and I know this because...Ive lived it...
Happy Birthday Bear Bear
I couldnt even say happy birthday to her..I have something so important to tell her that it would crack the very foundation that me and her built upon..because it took me two years to figure out..
She blocks my screen names..and ignores my messages...
So I cant say much to her..she just flat out will not talk to me..Im so sad..that all I can do is drink..Is this what its gonna be now..Me drinking alot again..cause since the whole thing started all Ive been doing is drinking...and sleeping between jobs,probation and such
and now this?...
Two years in a row she wont be here for my birthday..
Shes not going to talk to me anymore..and I ask myself..How much more painful can my life become..Ive been through it all,Drugs,Booze,Fights,Prison,Deaths
Now the loss of my best friend..
I know its my fault..I crossed the line..
But if your reading this..How far will you go to protect a loved one?..
Claire did something similar for Paul while he was in the hospital..I was there when she did it..It cannot be denied..
16 days until my birthday and Im not looking forword to it....
I love Tubbs dearly..Life just isnt the same without her in it..and I know this because...Ive lived it...
Happy Birthday Bear Bear