[. i dug it out incase she turns away .]
.........so much is going through my mind right now..........the problem......is that i make things to serious..............i never ment to make her seem like my reason for living...............shes just my reason for living happy........the one thing that might be the best for us..............is the one thing i fear the most.........im leaving it up to her................i really hope that we can talk and all of this can be fixed........but i dont know............its up to her now.........we can eather talk and try to fix this.......or we can take a break..i just want all this to be fixed.............jenna i never ment to make things seem this serious..........your not my reason for living............but your my hapiness........i feel so strongly for you jenna.............i know you love me........and i know that i love you...............and i see that the problem is me.........that by me making things seem to serious..........its hurting the relationship........and alot of the things ive written in here that are "scary" were spur of the moment.........but spur is scary because its just current emotion.........not what is truely felt........im sorry jenna........i wish i would have seen this sooner............no matter what is decided for us jenna..........my only hope is that we still remain friends.............and we still talk............because i would hate to lose our friendship.................i love you jenna.............