[. so sweetly she sucks away at my time .]
love.............the one emotion i will never understand............nor will anyone else............its not possible........i fuckin hate body language.........and fuckin vibes.........and weird feelings you get when you think you know whats going on................you know i try so fucking hard............for everyone.......but nothing changes.................nothing will ever change..............no one sees me any different..............i guess all those years of being a compulsive liar and a complete and total asshole fucked me up for life..........i have to care though..............but that might be my fuckin problem.............maybe i care too much................JESUS FUCKIN CHRIST WONT SOMEBODY LISTEN TO MY CRIES FOR HELP AND TAKE ME FUCKING SERIOUSLY........................all i need right now is for someone to hold me and let me know that i mean something to someone..........the one good thing that happened today was the simple fact that i got to see jenna...............sometimes i feel as if im not even good enough for her..................im off to drown........take it easier then i am.......