Fall On My Face But Cant You See, This Fucking Life Is Killing Me...
had a good weekend. jackie's grounded for a long time and im not. hahahahahahahahaha. but it she said it was all worth it. at least she had fun. and thats what life is all about. hah. im going to get my clothes and michaels and jons clothes out of her car in a bit.
im soooo bored. someone come play with me. blah
my dad wants to take me to lunch today. mmm...im not really hungry but ok.
me n my mom argueing all the time is getting old. she really does mean the things she says. and that hurts. i cant even say i wish i was the child she wanted because i like who i am, i think. im comefertable with myself and i dont care if she approaves or not. it just gets tiring hearing her calling me all of these mean names and yelling at me for no reason. i try not to blame myself but it usually happens. i want to move out of that house as soon as possible. i know i can go live at chris' but i dont want to live over there. too much drama and too much secrets. im trying to stay possitive but with all the negative things being said to me and about me is only pulling me down. i need another drink. i havent cut yet so i guess that means im holding on good. i prolly shouldnt say yet cuz that gives people the impression that im going to. well, i dont wanna lie, i prolly will cut sooner or later. i know im not the best kid, but im certanly not the worst. im almost 17 and im still having to deal with bullshit. when will it end? uh, does it ever? im sick or being the one everyone looks down on. im sick of being ugly. i wanna build a little house far far away and leave. i dont even have the urge to prove anyone wrong. i dont owe them anything, i didnt do anything to deserve this.
grr whatever. bitch bitch bitch complain complain complain. i need some luvin.
im not starting sail as soon as i thought. my teachers want me to complete more assignments to get more credits. i dont have enough or something. im happy and sad about staying at second chance longer. i have made some good friends there, but if i dont get to sail by the end of this year im gonna be mad.
"i know where I want to go but i just dont know how to get there"
viva vega! i hear danny is out. thats great!
im thinking about cutting my hair again. i dont know what im gonna do with it yet. i want to grow it out but im impatient.
im soooo bored. someone come play with me. blah
my dad wants to take me to lunch today. mmm...im not really hungry but ok.
me n my mom argueing all the time is getting old. she really does mean the things she says. and that hurts. i cant even say i wish i was the child she wanted because i like who i am, i think. im comefertable with myself and i dont care if she approaves or not. it just gets tiring hearing her calling me all of these mean names and yelling at me for no reason. i try not to blame myself but it usually happens. i want to move out of that house as soon as possible. i know i can go live at chris' but i dont want to live over there. too much drama and too much secrets. im trying to stay possitive but with all the negative things being said to me and about me is only pulling me down. i need another drink. i havent cut yet so i guess that means im holding on good. i prolly shouldnt say yet cuz that gives people the impression that im going to. well, i dont wanna lie, i prolly will cut sooner or later. i know im not the best kid, but im certanly not the worst. im almost 17 and im still having to deal with bullshit. when will it end? uh, does it ever? im sick or being the one everyone looks down on. im sick of being ugly. i wanna build a little house far far away and leave. i dont even have the urge to prove anyone wrong. i dont owe them anything, i didnt do anything to deserve this.
grr whatever. bitch bitch bitch complain complain complain. i need some luvin.
im not starting sail as soon as i thought. my teachers want me to complete more assignments to get more credits. i dont have enough or something. im happy and sad about staying at second chance longer. i have made some good friends there, but if i dont get to sail by the end of this year im gonna be mad.
"i know where I want to go but i just dont know how to get there"
viva vega! i hear danny is out. thats great!
im thinking about cutting my hair again. i dont know what im gonna do with it yet. i want to grow it out but im impatient.