A Desperate Plea for the Retaliation of the Mundane
Well, welcome to another edition of my life, yes I am a dork! Well, today sucked because I worked all day and man am I tired, but I wanted to see if Danielle was online but she wasn't. She says that she wants to move from Oil City to either Pittsburgh or Erie and I do not know how to react lately to her. I care for her so much and like she told me she does seem to push me away. All I want to do is hold her tight and tell her things will be ok and then for them to be ok. I care for her more than anything in my life and I wish she could understand and would let me in because I want to help her and makes things better as best as I can. I am not sure what to do, my mind is spinning about all of this. Then while in the process I keep thinking about the girl from school and I am very nervous about talking to her so I figure I probably won't, eh and so is my life. Feeling pretty shitty because I am worried as hell about Danielle and then I haven't really seen my mom at all because I have been working so much on the weekends and today I worked all day and then I have a bowling tournament Saturday and Sunday and I know I am going to bowl like shit so whatever. I am pretty stoked for the Bouncing Souls, Tsunami Bomb, and Strike Anywhere show. I have been listening to the new Strike Anywhere cd a lot so I can get ready for the show. School sucks, I am doing pretty good I think for me. I usually suck at school and I think I am doing pretty good, but who knows. I really need to get a band together. I miss playing and showing people my talent. The guys at school want to start a ska band, but I don't know if that is going to happen and then I really want to sing for the guys from Ten Cent Story, but I don't have much time for it so who knows with that too, but I want to play so badly. I want to learn guitar so I can sit down and write my own songs, I mean I can write lyrics and I know how I want the songs to sound. Well, i guess I will check out even though I know no one cares and why would you because if I were you, I sure as hell wouldn't, whatever I am out peace