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I've tried making several updates over the last few weeks, but I feel like nothing significant enough to update about has happened. But then again, nothing really significant has happened to me in a long time. At least that's how I've been feeling lately. That feeling has been coming back, the feeling of wanting to get away...
Work has been stressing me out. Not so much Whole Foods, but the family business. My step-mom has been working me really hard. Since my dad has gotten his new job he hasn't been around too much, so Yvonne has been putting a lot the responsibilities of managing the store on me. I constantly have to worry about sales, getting in the orders on time, and making sure all the customers are satisfied. If I do something wrong, she makes sure that I hear about it. I've tried having a conversation with her about how I'm feeling overwhelmed, but she just tells me she had it twice as bad when she was my age. I know she's just trying to push me, and she has, but I don't think its in the direction I want to go in.
School is okay. Playing music is a real nice way to sort of temporarily get away from everything. But to be honest, I'm not doing so well academically. Music Theory is really tough, I feel like I'm falling behind a little. I'm not doing well in Sight Singing at all, I'm having trouble getting the right pitches out and I can't remember the last time I got a dictation right. And I have so many essays due in Ethics I don't know how I'm going to get them all in on time. I do feel like I'm improving on my playing though, so that keeps me optimistic.
...I'm not saying I want a vacation from everything, that implies that I'll have to return to what I'm doing. But really, if I want something significant to happen in my life, I need to make some sort of significant change.
It's nice to vent a little.
Work has been stressing me out. Not so much Whole Foods, but the family business. My step-mom has been working me really hard. Since my dad has gotten his new job he hasn't been around too much, so Yvonne has been putting a lot the responsibilities of managing the store on me. I constantly have to worry about sales, getting in the orders on time, and making sure all the customers are satisfied. If I do something wrong, she makes sure that I hear about it. I've tried having a conversation with her about how I'm feeling overwhelmed, but she just tells me she had it twice as bad when she was my age. I know she's just trying to push me, and she has, but I don't think its in the direction I want to go in.
School is okay. Playing music is a real nice way to sort of temporarily get away from everything. But to be honest, I'm not doing so well academically. Music Theory is really tough, I feel like I'm falling behind a little. I'm not doing well in Sight Singing at all, I'm having trouble getting the right pitches out and I can't remember the last time I got a dictation right. And I have so many essays due in Ethics I don't know how I'm going to get them all in on time. I do feel like I'm improving on my playing though, so that keeps me optimistic.
...I'm not saying I want a vacation from everything, that implies that I'll have to return to what I'm doing. But really, if I want something significant to happen in my life, I need to make some sort of significant change.
It's nice to vent a little.