I Envy Christians
Who thought I'd ever say that but I do. When Christians have a run of bad luck all they have to do is believe God has a plan and it will get better. I envy that kind of faith (even if I find it completely unrational). They truly believe that if they have faith some spiritual being will look out for them. In a way it's like they can't make a mistake because God already has everything planned out. So whatever decision they make is the right one.
What do I have to look forward to when I am going through a rough time? Not much I'll tell you that. I can't just suddenly feel better because I think it might turn around. No I'm a cynical, pessimistic, depressive slacker. I worry about any and everything past, present and future.
I've thought about studying a religion and getting into it but my mind works to logically. I ask to many questions and a lot of it doesn't make sense. Granted I've never really tried to understand. If people were willing to admit that the stories in the bible were just that, stories, it'd be easier. I believe they're all just metaphors on how people should live their lives: happy and helpful. Take care of other people I believe is the real message in all religions, except Scientology. Fuck that shit. I'll end this now I didn't mean for this to become a religious rant.
What do I have to look forward to when I am going through a rough time? Not much I'll tell you that. I can't just suddenly feel better because I think it might turn around. No I'm a cynical, pessimistic, depressive slacker. I worry about any and everything past, present and future.
I've thought about studying a religion and getting into it but my mind works to logically. I ask to many questions and a lot of it doesn't make sense. Granted I've never really tried to understand. If people were willing to admit that the stories in the bible were just that, stories, it'd be easier. I believe they're all just metaphors on how people should live their lives: happy and helpful. Take care of other people I believe is the real message in all religions, except Scientology. Fuck that shit. I'll end this now I didn't mean for this to become a religious rant.