fuck
I knew college was going to well. There is no way I could go through such a huge schange and adjust so well. No way could I come here adn get ood grades, manage a brand new social scene, and be active in two of the most demanding programs here, theatre and band. I need to break down, it was bound to happen, and this weekend jsut pushe dme over the edge. Sucha huge disaster and I feel terrible. Meg clears her scheduel to come here, and i'm stuck in a theater they won't le tme leave where i'm NOT DOING ANYTHING!!! I jsu thave to be there in case they want me to do something. I started lending myself out as a carpenter just to have something to do while I was there.
There is no way i can fuckin keep this up. I need this show to be over.
I think all teh otehr designers and staff workign ehr realised today that I'm the only student besdies the stage manager on the production team as the priamry for that aspect. They all suddenly realised that i am fucking alone in all this with no one above me. I was barely taught to do this job and I'm supposed to be full on ready for this. What more rediculous, and what they also realised, is that i'm the most together of everyone. Granted my job may have been smaller, but there are never any sound notes at the after rehersal mettings. I spend all rehersal waiting for people to fix their shit and waste my time.
Fuck.
There is no way i can fuckin keep this up. I need this show to be over.
I think all teh otehr designers and staff workign ehr realised today that I'm the only student besdies the stage manager on the production team as the priamry for that aspect. They all suddenly realised that i am fucking alone in all this with no one above me. I was barely taught to do this job and I'm supposed to be full on ready for this. What more rediculous, and what they also realised, is that i'm the most together of everyone. Granted my job may have been smaller, but there are never any sound notes at the after rehersal mettings. I spend all rehersal waiting for people to fix their shit and waste my time.
Fuck.