wow
You ever get that feeling like your chest is going to explode, like there's something inside you can't let out yet but you want too so damn bad it hurts? Yeah, well now try paying attention at work with this happening and you'll get an idea of today.
So I absolutely have to go to the comet and drink and shoot pool tonight, I have to try and calm down. I like this feeling, its anticipation along the lines of waiting for LSD to kick in but with the knowledge that I'll remember everything with crystal clarity.
I also get this feeling where I don't think I should get too excited over something because by doing it I'll fuck everything up. I used to live with the full belief that I wasn't allowed to be happy, and anytime my life was going good was more like a credit card. Right now you got it but you're gonna have to pay it back later, with interest. Its been sickeningly accurate at times too.
BUT that's not stopping me from being more excited than I've been in years right now. Fuck this job, I wanna go shoot some pool.
So I absolutely have to go to the comet and drink and shoot pool tonight, I have to try and calm down. I like this feeling, its anticipation along the lines of waiting for LSD to kick in but with the knowledge that I'll remember everything with crystal clarity.
I also get this feeling where I don't think I should get too excited over something because by doing it I'll fuck everything up. I used to live with the full belief that I wasn't allowed to be happy, and anytime my life was going good was more like a credit card. Right now you got it but you're gonna have to pay it back later, with interest. Its been sickeningly accurate at times too.
BUT that's not stopping me from being more excited than I've been in years right now. Fuck this job, I wanna go shoot some pool.