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In reply to: [link].
Okay you know what, normally I'm not into this 14 year-old girl junior high drama shit, but I am done with this two-faced shit and I am going to play it your way okay?
First of all, I understand that you put a lot of time and effort into planning the skating thing and I guarantee you that we all appreciate it and have a good time. But where do you get off making me sound like such an "inconsiderate" bitch when I was the first fucking person there. Sure, I was later than I said I was going to be. But we have a baby in the house and when the baby goes to bed we can eat. It's not my call when dinner goes on the stove. Yes, I could've excused myself from dinner but since when I mentioned I'd be late to you and you didn't seem to care, I figured I'd spend some time with my family. Now, back to me being such a bitch. Why aren't you pissed off at all the people that showed up after me? Cause I'm pretty sure that Kerrie and I getting there first at 9:20 made everyone else was late too. And if you want to go and start bringing up ancient history to prove how inconsiderate I am, I'm willing to play that game. Why don't we talk about your little crush on Kerrie? Yeah, I'm sure that for more than half of a relationship a girl really wants to know that her boyfriend is chasing the tail of her best friend. That's REALLY considerate and made me feel lots of love. Yeah you loved me, I was the princess of your fucking world, but you certainly didn't make it seem like that! Have you ever even for a second thought about how I feel? No, cause it's all about you and how awful I am to you. I have news for you Dan, you weren't the fucking easiest person to date but I stuck to it cause I loved you and I wanted it to work. But god knows I could only take so much of feeling like a fuck-rag before I was going to have to call it quits.
And you can just as well leave Steve out of it because for your information I am VERY careful about what I say about him around you. I never talk about him being "Mr Wonderful" and if I do talk about him it's always in context and never in subject. I'm not walking around singing "Oh Steve is the best man in the universe and there is no other for me, and no one else meant anything to me cause I have Steve lalalala." I can't believe you would even THINK that I would do that intentionally to hurt you! If I wanted to fucking "flaunt my rejection" I'm pretty sure I could come up with something better than "So Steve and I were at Wal-Mart yesterday..." Did it ever occur to you that maybe you are inflicting these accusation on me when there was in fact no malicious intent in the first place? If I want to be your friend, as I have expressed on numerous occasions, what fucking good would it do to make you feel like shit around me? You feel like shit around me because YOU force it upon yourself. You are seeing me in a negative light because you want to. You will just keep finding more and more things to come between us as friends. And the fact that you can't even fucking talk to me about it just reflects everything you never told me when you should have when we were dating. You seem conformable with sharing your problems with the rest of the world electronically, so maybe you'll take this message to heart in your language. Live Journal: the fucking medium of emotion.
Should I even mention that maybe our breakup was hard for me too? You know letting something go that you've been working to be with for so long and so hard wasn't easy for me either. And if you want to play 'how to hurt someone after you break up' we COULD talk about Hannah, but I don't want to go there because we've already played that game.
Let me go on cause you know what, you've done so well in making me look like a bitch I might as well continue the tradition. It seems you are very good about remembering all the shit I did that pissed you off. Maybe that's why when we were dating the only things I felt that you shared was the shit that you didn't like about me. But actually, I don't have a list of things that you did to hurt me. No actually I remember a lot of the wonderful times we had. I remember the Valentine's Night we spent together... I remember the week at your aunts... I remember camping... I remember you carrying me to the medic tent at warped tour and buying me water even though it was $6 and warm... I remember you giving me your jacket when I was cold. When I think about our relationship (no matter what I'm bitching about here) the over all general feeling I get has always been a positive one because I remember the GOOD STUFF and I felt like even if we had a rough ride you were something special to me. But all you harbor is fucking hate and some twisted need to make me into the evil fucking ex-girlfirend. Don't think I forget what you used to say to me about the girl you dated before me; yeah, I hope you have fun telling your next girl about how much of a bitch I am.
You say you want to be my friend but you find excuses to hate me again and again. You're right, I am NOT the girl you met and fell in love with 3 years ago. If you want to be friends with me you are going to have to be friends with me AS I AM NOW cause dammit I am not going to be 16 again. Don't you for a second even think that maybe I feel awkward around you cause we've been broken up for over a year and you are still nesting these vengeful feelings? You know I sent you an email today after reading your post... I was going to try to make amends for shit but screw it. Why should I pretend that I don't know how you feel? Maybe I let you tie my skates to make you feel like I still need and want you as a friend. Maybe you shouldn't hug someone and act all fucking happy around them when you are really pissed off at them.
You raise me to these standards that are higher than all of your other friends and then you bitch about me not meeting them, but not to my face. No, you post it in a fucking livejournal. You want to be my friend but you place upon me all these accusations and misinterpretations and then condemn me. So here's my reply. You can find it in your own goddamn time.
Okay you know what, normally I'm not into this 14 year-old girl junior high drama shit, but I am done with this two-faced shit and I am going to play it your way okay?
First of all, I understand that you put a lot of time and effort into planning the skating thing and I guarantee you that we all appreciate it and have a good time. But where do you get off making me sound like such an "inconsiderate" bitch when I was the first fucking person there. Sure, I was later than I said I was going to be. But we have a baby in the house and when the baby goes to bed we can eat. It's not my call when dinner goes on the stove. Yes, I could've excused myself from dinner but since when I mentioned I'd be late to you and you didn't seem to care, I figured I'd spend some time with my family. Now, back to me being such a bitch. Why aren't you pissed off at all the people that showed up after me? Cause I'm pretty sure that Kerrie and I getting there first at 9:20 made everyone else was late too. And if you want to go and start bringing up ancient history to prove how inconsiderate I am, I'm willing to play that game. Why don't we talk about your little crush on Kerrie? Yeah, I'm sure that for more than half of a relationship a girl really wants to know that her boyfriend is chasing the tail of her best friend. That's REALLY considerate and made me feel lots of love. Yeah you loved me, I was the princess of your fucking world, but you certainly didn't make it seem like that! Have you ever even for a second thought about how I feel? No, cause it's all about you and how awful I am to you. I have news for you Dan, you weren't the fucking easiest person to date but I stuck to it cause I loved you and I wanted it to work. But god knows I could only take so much of feeling like a fuck-rag before I was going to have to call it quits.
And you can just as well leave Steve out of it because for your information I am VERY careful about what I say about him around you. I never talk about him being "Mr Wonderful" and if I do talk about him it's always in context and never in subject. I'm not walking around singing "Oh Steve is the best man in the universe and there is no other for me, and no one else meant anything to me cause I have Steve lalalala." I can't believe you would even THINK that I would do that intentionally to hurt you! If I wanted to fucking "flaunt my rejection" I'm pretty sure I could come up with something better than "So Steve and I were at Wal-Mart yesterday..." Did it ever occur to you that maybe you are inflicting these accusation on me when there was in fact no malicious intent in the first place? If I want to be your friend, as I have expressed on numerous occasions, what fucking good would it do to make you feel like shit around me? You feel like shit around me because YOU force it upon yourself. You are seeing me in a negative light because you want to. You will just keep finding more and more things to come between us as friends. And the fact that you can't even fucking talk to me about it just reflects everything you never told me when you should have when we were dating. You seem conformable with sharing your problems with the rest of the world electronically, so maybe you'll take this message to heart in your language. Live Journal: the fucking medium of emotion.
Should I even mention that maybe our breakup was hard for me too? You know letting something go that you've been working to be with for so long and so hard wasn't easy for me either. And if you want to play 'how to hurt someone after you break up' we COULD talk about Hannah, but I don't want to go there because we've already played that game.
Let me go on cause you know what, you've done so well in making me look like a bitch I might as well continue the tradition. It seems you are very good about remembering all the shit I did that pissed you off. Maybe that's why when we were dating the only things I felt that you shared was the shit that you didn't like about me. But actually, I don't have a list of things that you did to hurt me. No actually I remember a lot of the wonderful times we had. I remember the Valentine's Night we spent together... I remember the week at your aunts... I remember camping... I remember you carrying me to the medic tent at warped tour and buying me water even though it was $6 and warm... I remember you giving me your jacket when I was cold. When I think about our relationship (no matter what I'm bitching about here) the over all general feeling I get has always been a positive one because I remember the GOOD STUFF and I felt like even if we had a rough ride you were something special to me. But all you harbor is fucking hate and some twisted need to make me into the evil fucking ex-girlfirend. Don't think I forget what you used to say to me about the girl you dated before me; yeah, I hope you have fun telling your next girl about how much of a bitch I am.
You say you want to be my friend but you find excuses to hate me again and again. You're right, I am NOT the girl you met and fell in love with 3 years ago. If you want to be friends with me you are going to have to be friends with me AS I AM NOW cause dammit I am not going to be 16 again. Don't you for a second even think that maybe I feel awkward around you cause we've been broken up for over a year and you are still nesting these vengeful feelings? You know I sent you an email today after reading your post... I was going to try to make amends for shit but screw it. Why should I pretend that I don't know how you feel? Maybe I let you tie my skates to make you feel like I still need and want you as a friend. Maybe you shouldn't hug someone and act all fucking happy around them when you are really pissed off at them.
You raise me to these standards that are higher than all of your other friends and then you bitch about me not meeting them, but not to my face. No, you post it in a fucking livejournal. You want to be my friend but you place upon me all these accusations and misinterpretations and then condemn me. So here's my reply. You can find it in your own goddamn time.