clock in for your life
Today I called in..yet again. I think this routine is getting old.. in a way this day was just something to break the habit.
I work, sleep, eat, and then do the same thing the next day. The only break is when I have shows on the first friday of the month and even those are starting to get repetitive. I enjoy showing, but lately it's starting to feel like it's another job that I have to clock in for. I've seen many people pass me by or carry on with their lives. I feel trapped sometimes in my schedule I have to cancel plans because they conflict with sleep that I need for the job the next day, and in doing so I miss out on fun I could have with my friends. Toinght I thought about that at margaritas, most of these people will move on and I'll still be here for the most part. I haven't thought of Grad school, I haven't thought of anything really.. it feels like my mind's numb when it comes to making plans like that. It's felt that way ever since I got out of high school...
I'm just glad I have Ashley at my side..she's the best girl ever. I'm sure with her by my side It won't be so bad... and maybe It'll come to me..one afternoon I'll pull some major plans out of my butt... haha.
I work, sleep, eat, and then do the same thing the next day. The only break is when I have shows on the first friday of the month and even those are starting to get repetitive. I enjoy showing, but lately it's starting to feel like it's another job that I have to clock in for. I've seen many people pass me by or carry on with their lives. I feel trapped sometimes in my schedule I have to cancel plans because they conflict with sleep that I need for the job the next day, and in doing so I miss out on fun I could have with my friends. Toinght I thought about that at margaritas, most of these people will move on and I'll still be here for the most part. I haven't thought of Grad school, I haven't thought of anything really.. it feels like my mind's numb when it comes to making plans like that. It's felt that way ever since I got out of high school...
I'm just glad I have Ashley at my side..she's the best girl ever. I'm sure with her by my side It won't be so bad... and maybe It'll come to me..one afternoon I'll pull some major plans out of my butt... haha.