Back in the saddle?
It's been a very long time, lj.
Why am I back? Good question. Today, for the first time in a very long time, I recieved a comment via email. I miss this place. It was nice having a place to put my thoughts down that wasn't (another fucking) sad white boy perzine. I started one, too! You can't read it. It joined the remains of so many cigarettes in my ash tray.
My last entry was doom and gloom. Do I still feel like that? Sometimes. A lot of the time, even. Am I in a better place, now? You bet.
Let's see, by way of a cliff notes history of the last year or so:
-Had the best relationship of my life, so far, with someone i have known for a long time. It wasn't all perfect, but it was largely positive. It is now (officially, anyway) ended. We'll see where things progress.
-I still work at the same bike shop. I now make enough money to eat regularly and sometimes do things.
-I traveled a bit this year. Kansas City a couple times, and Portland once. And some local trips.
-In four days, I leave for a framebuilding class. Today I did a lot to secure shop space for when I return.
-Kind of stopped trying to be in bands. Seems to only sap away my energy and positivity, with little payoff ('cept when it does)
-Recently started tooling leather, like some kind of cowboy. It is nice to have a hobby I can do at home.
-Decided to start fishing more this year. Will take at least one combined bike tour/fly fishing trip this summer.
-I've been working on a little book. Going to self publish a little manual on cheap and accessible bike touring. Might turn into a regular thing. Hoping to finish this by March.
-As a life idea: I want to be able to do a lot of little things I enjoy and can sell to make ends meet. I keep hearing my friends hate their lives because they have "real" jobs. I feel like I'm finally willing to admit to myself I made a lot of right choices, by not choosing that.
-Trying to be less self destructive. At least in the bad, emotional ways. Chemical use is science, and science is punk.
-still punk
It is going to be really interesting to see who is still around, and if anyone reads this.
Why am I back? Good question. Today, for the first time in a very long time, I recieved a comment via email. I miss this place. It was nice having a place to put my thoughts down that wasn't (another fucking) sad white boy perzine. I started one, too! You can't read it. It joined the remains of so many cigarettes in my ash tray.
My last entry was doom and gloom. Do I still feel like that? Sometimes. A lot of the time, even. Am I in a better place, now? You bet.
Let's see, by way of a cliff notes history of the last year or so:
-Had the best relationship of my life, so far, with someone i have known for a long time. It wasn't all perfect, but it was largely positive. It is now (officially, anyway) ended. We'll see where things progress.
-I still work at the same bike shop. I now make enough money to eat regularly and sometimes do things.
-I traveled a bit this year. Kansas City a couple times, and Portland once. And some local trips.
-In four days, I leave for a framebuilding class. Today I did a lot to secure shop space for when I return.
-Kind of stopped trying to be in bands. Seems to only sap away my energy and positivity, with little payoff ('cept when it does)
-Recently started tooling leather, like some kind of cowboy. It is nice to have a hobby I can do at home.
-Decided to start fishing more this year. Will take at least one combined bike tour/fly fishing trip this summer.
-I've been working on a little book. Going to self publish a little manual on cheap and accessible bike touring. Might turn into a regular thing. Hoping to finish this by March.
-As a life idea: I want to be able to do a lot of little things I enjoy and can sell to make ends meet. I keep hearing my friends hate their lives because they have "real" jobs. I feel like I'm finally willing to admit to myself I made a lot of right choices, by not choosing that.
-Trying to be less self destructive. At least in the bad, emotional ways. Chemical use is science, and science is punk.
-still punk
It is going to be really interesting to see who is still around, and if anyone reads this.