like i said.

[skankin_scum]

in my previous post i stated this is where i come when i have no where else to go to vent. here i go. i don't like competition, i don't think i should have to compete for someone's attention if they care about you. i just don't like this feeling, i know i'll be ok it's just a bad day. i wish i could be everything, i wish i could be enough. i want to be proud of myself. i want someone to be proud of me too. i'm working towards that it's hard to feel shitty in the mean time.

you are my sweetest downfall, i loved you first. i loved you first.

i will always love you. so many memories... i want to go back in time to feel that way again. i want to create beautiful moments like those again. i want to believe that we can experience those things again. this is a gross world and it's hurtful, i want to make those moments come back into our lives.

i will fight. this is all i want in life.