I Can't Believe I Actually Cried Tonite.....
So yeha Regionals were as great as I thought they were gonna be. I sat in my contest holding room for almost an hour and ten minutes before my number was called for my turn. I went into my contest thinking I was on top of the world. I get in to the cafetoruim for the results and I got....7th place sliver out of 8 fucking people competeing. I got the stage and my eyes were starting to water.
I went back to the room after I got my medal to hear my contest judges opinons on my performance or whatever you wanna call it. The first judge called me a lier, saying I didnt back up my information in the letter and I left blanks on the application, I had to fight back tears. I walked out of the room and I almost broke down right there, I made it around the corner before the tears started to slide down my cheeks. I didnt even make it into the cafetoruim for the rest of the results. I saw Jackie Willams sitting and I fell down next to her and started crying my eyes. I knew she wouldnt make fun of me or let anyone make fun of me for crying. It was horrible I can't believe that asshole judge called me a lier. It was horrible. I cried for about 15 minutes there and then we got on the bus and the tears were still streaming down my face and when I sat down everyone that was near was trying to make me feel better. It was nice but I just needed to cry I guess. The damn freshman starting bitching about losing and not making it to states. I told them to "fucking change the subject... Don't dwell on that fact you have three more damn years!" and sure enough the subject changed right away.
I dont get to go to frankenmuth tommorrow either, the roads are gonna be nasty and gross so instead 5gina are gonna go with my mom out to lansing for lunch at Olive Garden and then go shopping at the Merdian Mall. That will be fun at least, maybe we can go to frankenmuth on saturday instead. Hopefully.
I went back to the room after I got my medal to hear my contest judges opinons on my performance or whatever you wanna call it. The first judge called me a lier, saying I didnt back up my information in the letter and I left blanks on the application, I had to fight back tears. I walked out of the room and I almost broke down right there, I made it around the corner before the tears started to slide down my cheeks. I didnt even make it into the cafetoruim for the rest of the results. I saw Jackie Willams sitting and I fell down next to her and started crying my eyes. I knew she wouldnt make fun of me or let anyone make fun of me for crying. It was horrible I can't believe that asshole judge called me a lier. It was horrible. I cried for about 15 minutes there and then we got on the bus and the tears were still streaming down my face and when I sat down everyone that was near was trying to make me feel better. It was nice but I just needed to cry I guess. The damn freshman starting bitching about losing and not making it to states. I told them to "fucking change the subject... Don't dwell on that fact you have three more damn years!" and sure enough the subject changed right away.
I dont get to go to frankenmuth tommorrow either, the roads are gonna be nasty and gross so instead 5gina are gonna go with my mom out to lansing for lunch at Olive Garden and then go shopping at the Merdian Mall. That will be fun at least, maybe we can go to frankenmuth on saturday instead. Hopefully.