In other words, I love you.

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I can't sleep so I'll write a little bit...for the first time I got really pissed off at Cassie. I hate it when she gets drunk without me, but she's always been drunk without me lol. It doesn't happen everyday, but I want to be there with her when she's in that condition. I'd never get drunk without her because I will never put myself in a situation that could lead to me cheating on her. That's the main reason I don't do anything without her, and that I'm just considerate of how she would feel if I did that and she was in my position. She knows that already, and I know she's really sorry that she kinda fucked up. I just want to be able to have fun like that with her, and it's like they kinda waited until I was gone to start having real fun. I go over there and we sit and watch movies. Afterthat, I leave and everytime someone important comes over they have fun without me. I just feel leftout all the time, and by the last person that I'd ever think would leave me out. It's just no one has ever been considerate of me, and I just expected her to be considerate since she says she loves me so...She doesn't mean to I know...these are just feelings I can't help but feel. I wish I didn't feel them because I wouldn't hurt so goddamn much if I didn't feel them. She should know that I love her more than anything in this world though, and I want this to work out. In time everything will be fine.

"When you were sick I held your hand. When you were drunk I tried to understand...because losing you isn't part of the plan."
-Tim Armstrong