if only....

[skank4life]

So, I've been back from florida alittle more then a week now,and it sucks being home. I come home and i feel like everything has changed, no one wants to hang out, because first of all I have no car and no one wants to pick me up all the way in Haddionfield. But I can't comeplain so much i guess. My birthday sucked hardcore. i was in a bad mood all day. but thanks to Ber and Diane i had some fun we bought me a birthday cake and some people went to bers house. I dunno i've just been feeling let down in a way i guess, All my friends have boyfriends or guys they can talk to and once  again im alone. Why is it so hard to just go out and find a guy? I mean i'm not looking for a boyfriend just a guy friend to call and to talk to. I dunno I just cant wait till Aug 5 when i go down the shore, I'll have my Husband to talk to, and neighbores to party with and my family..I guess it doesnt get any better then that cause our neighbors are usally good looking.. and i am 18 now hahah...I dunno and jess leaves for camp tomorrow and wont be back till thursday.. so that leaves me with nothing to do besides hang out with Sean ha which isnt so bad, he bought be fish the other day cause i cleaned our room, and he got me some loation and body spray from bath and body, although it was free its still cool. I guess its weird cause growing up we really didnt like each other and now we can just hang out and its fun. And Diannas ass needs to come home be often... even though me and her dont go out and do things anymore... Loser! I dunno I guess im done bitching for now..

Peace bitches