declutterifying
I don't know what it is the past few days but i've been totally inspired to declutter my life. mostly it's just been my apartment. maybe the new paint in the bathroom (thanks, Grandpa Ken, you rule!!) that inspired me or maybe i just got sick of feeling like i was sitting in the mud. maybe it was the reassurance from my own grandfather that i'm doing well, given he's the person whose opinion matters most to me. or maybe it was that other thing that i just forgot..... um...oh the separation from my mother. i think i am finally sucessfully leaving adolescence. maybe.
I kinda don;t want to. i feel like i'm giving something up. something that i had planned to hold on to for a really long time. i wanted to be immature and party and be irresponsible but it seems like those my feet were never the right size for those shoes.
anyways. it kinda feels good but then i kinda feel like once i finish all my projects that i won't know what to do afterward. and i'll just rot in motherhood. i dunno. maybe it will be the oposite and i'll flourish with the ablility to do more. ( i dont think that last statement makes sence gramatically. oh well)
I kinda don;t want to. i feel like i'm giving something up. something that i had planned to hold on to for a really long time. i wanted to be immature and party and be irresponsible but it seems like those my feet were never the right size for those shoes.
anyways. it kinda feels good but then i kinda feel like once i finish all my projects that i won't know what to do afterward. and i'll just rot in motherhood. i dunno. maybe it will be the oposite and i'll flourish with the ablility to do more. ( i dont think that last statement makes sence gramatically. oh well)