Last letter to Paul
Wow where to start.
I so want to believe you every time you lie to my face. everytime i want to believe that you;re telling the truth. I shoudl have listened to Joel ffrom the beginning. You probably were sleeping with Sabrina when you said you weren't, you probably were with that other Jackie girl when you said you weren't. No matter how many people told me you were lying to me, i always believed you. You've been seeing Jacquie since February?! seriously? What happened to the "i never cheated on you."? umm. got news for you. you were cheating on us both.
And now you're telling her how you want to marry her? Lemme help you out... if you really want to make a relationship work, you shoudl try honesty. And when you get caught in a lie, fess up. People may even start respecting you. I just can't fuckig believe it. i dont want to. because for all your underhanded tricks and all your lies, i loved you. i still love you. And there was a time when i thought you loved me too. at least that's what you told me. that you had never felt that way about anyone before. I suppose it was easier to hide thengs from me whan i was in toronto. Cause then all you had to do was say that Joel was lying. And the really tragic thingis i betrayed my good friend joel because i wouldnt turn my back on you.
All that shit on thursday abot wanting to be a good dad.... god. you were just fucking playing me caus you knew that's what i wanted to hear. You just told me whatever you had to to get me to roll over. including letting me kiss you, telling me things were bad with Jacquie, telling me you wanted to work things out. I just can't believe how fucking slimy you are. i cant believe how incredibly self centred you are. I thought the head games i played on people were bad.... but man, you're just disgusting. Tellign Jacquie all those things just so you ca nget in her pants. you gonna get her knocked up too? then leave her to figure everything out on her own?? while you're fucking the next shiny thing that happens to catch your eye?
I tell you you'd better never come anywhere near my child. Do your paternity test if you have to, but don't you come anywhere near us.Well that is if there really is a lawyer. if you;re not making that up too. and if there is i'll be needing his/her name so that my lawyer can speak to them that way i never have to have any contact with you again.
Well played, Mr Hucker, but now your game is up. and at least two of the people you were playing see you for what you really are. But i suppose there are others, aren;t there? Bet you've got a whole string of women who got themselves tangled in your web.
You know. it's so funny. when we first got together, i thougth there was no way you could hurt me. you made yourself seem so sweet and innocent and pure.
Everytime i look at you i still just see the broken down little boy who just wanted his mommy to love him. and i know that that's where all of this stems from. i guess that's why i kept forgiving you. why i made excuses for you to everybody. the problem is, i was never a human being to you. and no woman ever will be. they will simply be women, objects to aquire. becasue we're all your mother to you. evil creatures in your mind. out to hurt you. so it doesn't matter how many you hurt. you don;t care about that. and you never will. But here's the beuaty of that : you will always be alone. you will never marry and you will die alone. because you;re not so clever and you don;t cover your tracks well. So whomever you;re with will always find out.
The really trasgic thing is that Jacquie and i will probably always be here. because we do really love you. and we know what that means. and no matter how much we hate you, we'll still love you underneath it all and will probably come running each and every time you call wolf. but i suppose that's our own downfall.
Anyways. just wated you to know this is the last time you're going to fool me. We're done. you;ve made it clear to me that you cannot be trusted. I hope for Jacquie's sake she's seen the same. She's such a wonderful, beuatiful person and it's a real shame that you don't cherish that. but then again so was i. Two people willing to give you the world, and you couldn't even give them truth.
I was so excited to tell you about all the things id been up to. how i have a new crib and clothes and blankets for the baby. I thought you;d be excited about that too. about our child coming into the world. but i suppose that would still involve caring about someone other than yourself. and i was right before. You don;t give a shit about this baby. you never did and you never will so long as you don;t have to give too much in child support.
So anyways, this is goodbye. i hope it was worth it.
When our child asks about their father i will be sure to only tell them about the man i knew last summer. Not the boy who emerged shortly afterward. I so wanted this child to know it's father. i didn't want them to be like you and me and be bitter because one parent wasn't there. So much i was willing to turn my back on all the people that cared about me becasue they told me not to have anythign to do with you. you will never have any idea of how much shit i went through for you... only for you to let me down.
Alright. goodbye for real.
I love you always.
Kat.
I so want to believe you every time you lie to my face. everytime i want to believe that you;re telling the truth. I shoudl have listened to Joel ffrom the beginning. You probably were sleeping with Sabrina when you said you weren't, you probably were with that other Jackie girl when you said you weren't. No matter how many people told me you were lying to me, i always believed you. You've been seeing Jacquie since February?! seriously? What happened to the "i never cheated on you."? umm. got news for you. you were cheating on us both.
And now you're telling her how you want to marry her? Lemme help you out... if you really want to make a relationship work, you shoudl try honesty. And when you get caught in a lie, fess up. People may even start respecting you. I just can't fuckig believe it. i dont want to. because for all your underhanded tricks and all your lies, i loved you. i still love you. And there was a time when i thought you loved me too. at least that's what you told me. that you had never felt that way about anyone before. I suppose it was easier to hide thengs from me whan i was in toronto. Cause then all you had to do was say that Joel was lying. And the really tragic thingis i betrayed my good friend joel because i wouldnt turn my back on you.
All that shit on thursday abot wanting to be a good dad.... god. you were just fucking playing me caus you knew that's what i wanted to hear. You just told me whatever you had to to get me to roll over. including letting me kiss you, telling me things were bad with Jacquie, telling me you wanted to work things out. I just can't believe how fucking slimy you are. i cant believe how incredibly self centred you are. I thought the head games i played on people were bad.... but man, you're just disgusting. Tellign Jacquie all those things just so you ca nget in her pants. you gonna get her knocked up too? then leave her to figure everything out on her own?? while you're fucking the next shiny thing that happens to catch your eye?
I tell you you'd better never come anywhere near my child. Do your paternity test if you have to, but don't you come anywhere near us.Well that is if there really is a lawyer. if you;re not making that up too. and if there is i'll be needing his/her name so that my lawyer can speak to them that way i never have to have any contact with you again.
Well played, Mr Hucker, but now your game is up. and at least two of the people you were playing see you for what you really are. But i suppose there are others, aren;t there? Bet you've got a whole string of women who got themselves tangled in your web.
You know. it's so funny. when we first got together, i thougth there was no way you could hurt me. you made yourself seem so sweet and innocent and pure.
Everytime i look at you i still just see the broken down little boy who just wanted his mommy to love him. and i know that that's where all of this stems from. i guess that's why i kept forgiving you. why i made excuses for you to everybody. the problem is, i was never a human being to you. and no woman ever will be. they will simply be women, objects to aquire. becasue we're all your mother to you. evil creatures in your mind. out to hurt you. so it doesn't matter how many you hurt. you don;t care about that. and you never will. But here's the beuaty of that : you will always be alone. you will never marry and you will die alone. because you;re not so clever and you don;t cover your tracks well. So whomever you;re with will always find out.
The really trasgic thing is that Jacquie and i will probably always be here. because we do really love you. and we know what that means. and no matter how much we hate you, we'll still love you underneath it all and will probably come running each and every time you call wolf. but i suppose that's our own downfall.
Anyways. just wated you to know this is the last time you're going to fool me. We're done. you;ve made it clear to me that you cannot be trusted. I hope for Jacquie's sake she's seen the same. She's such a wonderful, beuatiful person and it's a real shame that you don't cherish that. but then again so was i. Two people willing to give you the world, and you couldn't even give them truth.
I was so excited to tell you about all the things id been up to. how i have a new crib and clothes and blankets for the baby. I thought you;d be excited about that too. about our child coming into the world. but i suppose that would still involve caring about someone other than yourself. and i was right before. You don;t give a shit about this baby. you never did and you never will so long as you don;t have to give too much in child support.
So anyways, this is goodbye. i hope it was worth it.
When our child asks about their father i will be sure to only tell them about the man i knew last summer. Not the boy who emerged shortly afterward. I so wanted this child to know it's father. i didn't want them to be like you and me and be bitter because one parent wasn't there. So much i was willing to turn my back on all the people that cared about me becasue they told me not to have anythign to do with you. you will never have any idea of how much shit i went through for you... only for you to let me down.
Alright. goodbye for real.
I love you always.
Kat.