i need to get this out of my head
so my mind is so jumbled right now i can hardly think and i just need to get his out
so this wont make sense to most of you, but it makes sense to me
icy hot
futbol, both aspects
molly
fating
*****
*****
ruth with ******
crying cd
sohcahtoa
the mummy
life
love, pfft
happiness, like thatll heppen
dreams, will they ever come true
why does all this match up?!?
cell phones
i need a job
homework
college
i cant do this
i need a hero
help me?!?
no, i have to do this myself
aching
dying
death
cancer
sickness
std
cant happen
crash
truck
im invincible
until i crash and burn
archaeology
pagan archaeology
ireland
move
leave
run
hide
youll never find me mr sandman
im faster than you, youll never win
only i can beat this
now that i see the possibilities am i still ready to die?
molly on saturday, *****?
ruth and i with the *****
lucy creaming her metaphorical doggie pants
so many nights, legs tangled tight wrap me up in a dream withyou
waking up in *****s arms
a night on the beach
you stole my baby?!?
how could you
do i really need to see a doctor?
crying three times in a two hour time span
thw walls are closing in mr carrigan, can you please make them stop?
she wouldnt dare?!?
are you the one?
why do you do this to me?!?!
kid you confuse me so bad
the truth cuts deeper than the sharpest knife
can i fall in love?
its not possible
why do i open myself to you
help me, please
i dont want to see the doctor, all the he'll do is tell me my fears were true
truth?
crying
i cant anymore
fake
mask
faux pas?
HELP
i dont need a shrink!!!
fat
i hardly eat during the week anymore
only on the weekends
kill
death
suicide?
again?!
why cant i stop
please, only you can save me from my hell of desire
did i make the play?
come see me, please?
i need you now, why arent you here
please?
cant you hear me? any of you? ive been screaming for the past hour
im so tired, so tired
how many times do i have to live this way?
why cant you just let me die
you could make the cut for me, then id know its okay
im not crazy i swear it
help
this vision of you streams through my head, and im not in it
but then again theres a vision of us sleeping on the beach with only a blanket covering us from the knowing smirk of the moon and mother
why?
i cant do this anymore, so tired
you already know dont you?
but then again youll never know
no one will
itll die with me
i want a banana
not really
i eat too much already
save me?
but youve saved me so many times before, why would i ask you to save me again
im so selfish
i want to die
i want this to end
no one will know
no one will notice
im just a hushed whisper, you know its there, but you dont listen
im only your conscience
death... is only the beginning
mommy where do babys come from?
darling the fairy delivers them after beltain
beltain
chirstmas is comeing the goose is getting fat
i cant live this way anymore, this is no life worth living
end it?
help
crying
screaming
no more tears
no more voice
just this knowledge
just this vision of you and her
i cant stand her
why do you take her?
am i not good enough for you anymore!??!
damn you
i cant take this anymore
everything inside worth breaking was burned
whats hodling me here?
no one can save me from this, this is hell
heaven and hell are in our imaginations, we create our own
if you live well youre in heaven, you enjoyed what you had and lived life to the fullest, you have nothing to regret or feel sorry for, thats heaven
but when you regret and cause pain and hurt and are emotionally wounded youre in hell
this is my hell
avalon would never accept me
you cant even save me now
why?
why me why you why us?
this vision wont go away, it burns over everything else
burns
fire
inferno
never ending
you were the cool breath
you left
you made me a desert
why cant my ocean find me and wash away my sins?
i didnt make it
i failed you again
im sorry
so this wont make sense to most of you, but it makes sense to me
icy hot
futbol, both aspects
molly
fating
*****
*****
ruth with ******
crying cd
sohcahtoa
the mummy
life
love, pfft
happiness, like thatll heppen
dreams, will they ever come true
why does all this match up?!?
cell phones
i need a job
homework
college
i cant do this
i need a hero
help me?!?
no, i have to do this myself
aching
dying
death
cancer
sickness
std
cant happen
crash
truck
im invincible
until i crash and burn
archaeology
pagan archaeology
ireland
move
leave
run
hide
youll never find me mr sandman
im faster than you, youll never win
only i can beat this
now that i see the possibilities am i still ready to die?
molly on saturday, *****?
ruth and i with the *****
lucy creaming her metaphorical doggie pants
so many nights, legs tangled tight wrap me up in a dream withyou
waking up in *****s arms
a night on the beach
you stole my baby?!?
how could you
do i really need to see a doctor?
crying three times in a two hour time span
thw walls are closing in mr carrigan, can you please make them stop?
she wouldnt dare?!?
are you the one?
why do you do this to me?!?!
kid you confuse me so bad
the truth cuts deeper than the sharpest knife
can i fall in love?
its not possible
why do i open myself to you
help me, please
i dont want to see the doctor, all the he'll do is tell me my fears were true
truth?
crying
i cant anymore
fake
mask
faux pas?
HELP
i dont need a shrink!!!
fat
i hardly eat during the week anymore
only on the weekends
kill
death
suicide?
again?!
why cant i stop
please, only you can save me from my hell of desire
did i make the play?
come see me, please?
i need you now, why arent you here
please?
cant you hear me? any of you? ive been screaming for the past hour
im so tired, so tired
how many times do i have to live this way?
why cant you just let me die
you could make the cut for me, then id know its okay
im not crazy i swear it
help
this vision of you streams through my head, and im not in it
but then again theres a vision of us sleeping on the beach with only a blanket covering us from the knowing smirk of the moon and mother
why?
i cant do this anymore, so tired
you already know dont you?
but then again youll never know
no one will
itll die with me
i want a banana
not really
i eat too much already
save me?
but youve saved me so many times before, why would i ask you to save me again
im so selfish
i want to die
i want this to end
no one will know
no one will notice
im just a hushed whisper, you know its there, but you dont listen
im only your conscience
death... is only the beginning
mommy where do babys come from?
darling the fairy delivers them after beltain
beltain
chirstmas is comeing the goose is getting fat
i cant live this way anymore, this is no life worth living
end it?
help
crying
screaming
no more tears
no more voice
just this knowledge
just this vision of you and her
i cant stand her
why do you take her?
am i not good enough for you anymore!??!
damn you
i cant take this anymore
everything inside worth breaking was burned
whats hodling me here?
no one can save me from this, this is hell
heaven and hell are in our imaginations, we create our own
if you live well youre in heaven, you enjoyed what you had and lived life to the fullest, you have nothing to regret or feel sorry for, thats heaven
but when you regret and cause pain and hurt and are emotionally wounded youre in hell
this is my hell
avalon would never accept me
you cant even save me now
why?
why me why you why us?
this vision wont go away, it burns over everything else
burns
fire
inferno
never ending
you were the cool breath
you left
you made me a desert
why cant my ocean find me and wash away my sins?
i didnt make it
i failed you again
im sorry