WHAT ARE THE CHANCES?
right now i am at the library and bored as fuck. yesterday was a crazy ass day for me. me and my mom got into this bis ass argument and she "made" me break up with huby. but even she knows that wont happen she left sitting on the couch saying she doesnt care anymore because i aint her real daughter and i could do whatever i wanted. she took me out of the dance company too. so right now i honestly dont have anything. but then again im the type of person to make something out of nothing. she really pissed me off yesterday though, saying the things she did.
i feel like i have no control over anything. i want to leave my "home" but where would i go? it has been over 4 years since i ran away for the first time. but that was a different family then. and they accepted me back. but with this family, my mom says that if i run away dont expect to come back. what are my possibilties..... i could go live with sam. he said that his family wouldnt care.but then again sam's family is screwed up. (sorry sam but u even know it) his dad is smoking and drinking with him. i dont really wanna be wrapped up with that again. Brittany says i could go with them. but check this out. ** she lives right next door to me** yeah that a good plan right there. "mom.. i leaving and never coming back!!!" " oh yeah? and where are you gonna go?" "NEXT DOOR!!!!!" kinda funny when you think about it. then there is emancipaion. you need a hella excuse though. naaa that wont work either. i guess there is only one way out. TAKING ME OWN LIFE. good bye cruel world i hate you all...................................................................
YEAH RIGHT!!! SUICIDE? YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME? I WOULDNT BE ABEL TO DO THAT. SURE I "CUT" MYSELF HERE AND THERE BECAUSE IT MAKE ME CONCENTRATE ON THE PHYSICAL PAIN. BUT ACTUAL SLITTING MY WRIST OR THROAT? I COULDNT DO IT. JUST 2 MORE YEARS TILL I AM 18. AND THOSE YEARS ARE GOING TO BE THE LONGEST YEARS OF ME LIFE. INDEED. (((((((((((BRING IT OOOONNNNNNN))))))))))))
i feel like i have no control over anything. i want to leave my "home" but where would i go? it has been over 4 years since i ran away for the first time. but that was a different family then. and they accepted me back. but with this family, my mom says that if i run away dont expect to come back. what are my possibilties..... i could go live with sam. he said that his family wouldnt care.but then again sam's family is screwed up. (sorry sam but u even know it) his dad is smoking and drinking with him. i dont really wanna be wrapped up with that again. Brittany says i could go with them. but check this out. ** she lives right next door to me** yeah that a good plan right there. "mom.. i leaving and never coming back!!!" " oh yeah? and where are you gonna go?" "NEXT DOOR!!!!!" kinda funny when you think about it. then there is emancipaion. you need a hella excuse though. naaa that wont work either. i guess there is only one way out. TAKING ME OWN LIFE. good bye cruel world i hate you all...................................................................
YEAH RIGHT!!! SUICIDE? YOU GOTTA BE KIDDING ME? I WOULDNT BE ABEL TO DO THAT. SURE I "CUT" MYSELF HERE AND THERE BECAUSE IT MAKE ME CONCENTRATE ON THE PHYSICAL PAIN. BUT ACTUAL SLITTING MY WRIST OR THROAT? I COULDNT DO IT. JUST 2 MORE YEARS TILL I AM 18. AND THOSE YEARS ARE GOING TO BE THE LONGEST YEARS OF ME LIFE. INDEED. (((((((((((BRING IT OOOONNNNNNN))))))))))))