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I think people have stopped reading me. Meh. Doesn't really matter I guess. I don't really know anybody in Virginia anymore. The only person who really reads any of this is Kat and me of course. It's nice to go back and read about the things that I've gone through and what I was thinking about at the time. So I'm going to call Megan tomorrow. Hopefully I'll be able to pry her away from her fiction/non-fiction stuff. Oh yeah, I've fallen in love with Tool and APC again. I think I'm normalizing again. It feels nice. Maybe if things continue the way they are going I might even become content, maybe even happy after a while. But as things are now, I'm in the fuzzy glow of something new. The happy tingly feeling that will only last for a day or two, but its nice to have it after being so apathetic for so long. God, I'm so torn right now. I want to see what will come of letting whatever is developing between megan and I come to fruition, and I also want to be in Utah, rowing rafts down the river, working muscles til they ache with that burning sore feeling, then doing it all over again the next day. I think I've become addicted to the pain of borderline overexertion. I'm sooooo................... I dunno, but it feels good. Ha.. for the first time in a while, things are looking bright again, mind you, this doesn't mean i'm not going to be a pessimist anymore. I'm stil going to be my old cynical sarcastic self, just, more happy :) Bye bye all.
Ciao.
Ciao.