It's like a hurricane of change
Monday, I some how registered for classes. I got up at 7 in the morning. I was up late because I was afraid that I wasn't going to go do what I said I was going to do, and my roommates were very concerned for me. I went on my way at 8, but I couldn't find the school. I was lost as hell, and at 11 I gave up. I decided that if I wasn't going to go to school this semester then I better use the time to find a job. I went to a mall, and there are a lot of stores hiring, but I couldn't bring myself to fill out an application. I sat and wondered why I was so afraid of filling out an application. It is because I'm afraid my application won't be liked. I know that is pretty stupid, but it's true. I went to my home group, and I ran into my friend from treatment. Danny L. was somebody that I looked up to because he helped me to stop lying to myself. He mentioned that he was going to MDC to buy books. I told him what happend to me that morning and he asked if I wanted to come. At this point I decided that I was just going to buy a game and a movie, call it a day. However, when the Universe lights the path like that I know better than to turn it down. I finished my second step with my sponser who told me "It says a higher power COULD restore us to sanity. Not that it will, but that it could. We just have to put the work in. It just won't all of a sudden happen." I needed to hear that. I talked to the nicest advisor who got me registered for two classes. One is an English class and the other is learning how to use microsoft, so I have a cake of a semester. I also have till October 2 to fix my spring semester problem. A deadline helps me because it gives motivation.
The Universe called me again that day in the form of my landlord asking me if I wanted to move to Twin Lakes. Twin Lakes is another sober living house, but it is closer to MDC. The effort was enourmous so I was like "I don't know...", then she said I would get the single room. Done deal. Another perk is that it is where Vivi lives. Moving was hard, but worth it. I think I'm going to stay here till I get done with my AA. This place is a super sweet town house, and it feels like home. I haven't had that feeling in a long time.
This tropical storm is a true Kamikaze (Divine Wind) because it gave me two days off of school. Time to move in, and get settled. Now I just need to find a job I like. Daunting task, but it must be down. I am almost set.
The Universe called me again that day in the form of my landlord asking me if I wanted to move to Twin Lakes. Twin Lakes is another sober living house, but it is closer to MDC. The effort was enourmous so I was like "I don't know...", then she said I would get the single room. Done deal. Another perk is that it is where Vivi lives. Moving was hard, but worth it. I think I'm going to stay here till I get done with my AA. This place is a super sweet town house, and it feels like home. I haven't had that feeling in a long time.
This tropical storm is a true Kamikaze (Divine Wind) because it gave me two days off of school. Time to move in, and get settled. Now I just need to find a job I like. Daunting task, but it must be down. I am almost set.