Get on with making myself.
I wanted to apply at Urban outfitters, but they are hiring managers not peons. I am also having difficulty finding the gumption to do everything I have to do for school today, which sucks. I definetly need to get that done before the end of the week. Thing is I know that weeks go by quick after Monday. I stayed up too late again last night, but I was able to get out and about... at 12. Whatever I hit my electric lunch, and I tried to catch Clerks II, but it doesn't have too many times at Sunset. I lied to LA fitness lady so they would give me free parking, but hey I'm short on money this week. I guess I'm going to read my "is it love or is it addiction?" book. I am having trouble reading that too because the chapter I'm on is really long.
I seem to have a problem getting discouraged easily with everything. School, work, hobbies, working out, girls. It probably has to do with my self-doubt. It is much easier for me to quit then to keep trying because 1. I don't think I can attain my goal anyways, and 2. if I do attain my goal I think I will probably fail at mainting the commitment or responsability. I think this has to do with the fact that my Mom and my Sister took all of my responsabilities for me ever since childhood. I guess the only thing I can do is force myself to things I don't want to do. Tomorrow.
I seem to have a problem getting discouraged easily with everything. School, work, hobbies, working out, girls. It probably has to do with my self-doubt. It is much easier for me to quit then to keep trying because 1. I don't think I can attain my goal anyways, and 2. if I do attain my goal I think I will probably fail at mainting the commitment or responsability. I think this has to do with the fact that my Mom and my Sister took all of my responsabilities for me ever since childhood. I guess the only thing I can do is force myself to things I don't want to do. Tomorrow.