sigh,..update
kkkk sooo this weekend was pretty much a life ender. but of course life goes on and it will get better over time. i just wish i could for once just be happy with the life that i have and stop trying to make my life more interesting then it really is. I dont need to challenge myself with uphill battles that are getting impossible to fight. I dont need to challenge my abilities as a person. Of course there isnt a restart button but as most people know, people do change, maybe not today or tomorrow but over time they realize which path will lead them to where they want to get in life wheither it be job, school, people, anything. yea this is a gay entry but i mean this even if you dismiss it. I dont care what they think about us. I still love you. I havent shown it in the past month cause ive been scared of what would happen if i did. I am sorry even though i have said it wouldnt happen again. but I am sorry. youve given me chances but i want you to think hard bout this one before you decide and give it a lot of time. k im done <3.