So I can honestly say
That holiday was amazing.
I landed from Cuba this morning after having an amazing time.
I went feeling very very stressed up, glandular fever was flaring up, had a terrible bout of conjunctivitis in both eyes (thanks Tailisa) and was feeling very stressed and pissed off about alot of things.
Within two days my eyes had cleared up (that was thanks to thses amazing drops that England has not seemed to have discovered. Fucking ointment.) My health had improved, I was sleeping better and got some colour back.
I also looked at alot of things in my life in a different light. It's easy to get caught up and worried about alot of stuff.
These are the conclusions I have come to.
My relationship with my dad and potentially moving to London and going to college there - Well, to be honest alot of people have fucked up relationships with their fathers. I should feel lucky my dad loves me enough to not let me make a failure out of myself. To be honest without him I would be in a much worse state than I am in now. I am going to arrange for me and him to go and see my shrink and sort through some of our issues (I sound like an American) and I really hope it will be beneficial.
My relationship with my mum - I have learned that the best way to deal with my mum is to give her a very wide berth. I know she loves me and that me and her having a good relationship is important to her, and I need to work on not letting her annoying lectures get to me and just get on with it. Also if I feel things are getting a bit much and we're gettting on each others nerves I need to get out of her way for a few hours. However that may be. Also I need to call her more when I'm at my house in Guildford.
My college work - I'm not really as behind as I thought. I have half a piece of English coursework to do and a big piece of media, but I've got all the info I just need to put it together, it's more a case of sitting down and gettng on with it continually for a couple of hours.
My friends - It seems recently my close friendships have all been detriorating. But what I haven't realised is that new close ones are forming. To be honest, it's life. I am lucky to have the friends I do, I'm not gonna focus on the ones I don't. While some are having major maturity problems at the mo, others are really coming through for me which is good.
My little sister - Man, she really is the most annoying kid on the planet. i love her to death, but she acts like a 7 year old and to be honest it scares me. She's starting to think about boys and stuff and in my opinion she's far too immature for all that sort of stuff. She's going to end up heart broken very soon.
Me and the way I think - I think a few more people have the same sort of problems and insecurities as I do. I need to stop thinking about them so much and get my arse in gear, focus on my exams and get a job to feed my addiction to clothes.
I think
That might just
Be it.
Sorry to anyone that read all of that. It was a waste of five minutes of your life. :)
I landed from Cuba this morning after having an amazing time.
I went feeling very very stressed up, glandular fever was flaring up, had a terrible bout of conjunctivitis in both eyes (thanks Tailisa) and was feeling very stressed and pissed off about alot of things.
Within two days my eyes had cleared up (that was thanks to thses amazing drops that England has not seemed to have discovered. Fucking ointment.) My health had improved, I was sleeping better and got some colour back.
I also looked at alot of things in my life in a different light. It's easy to get caught up and worried about alot of stuff.
These are the conclusions I have come to.
My relationship with my dad and potentially moving to London and going to college there - Well, to be honest alot of people have fucked up relationships with their fathers. I should feel lucky my dad loves me enough to not let me make a failure out of myself. To be honest without him I would be in a much worse state than I am in now. I am going to arrange for me and him to go and see my shrink and sort through some of our issues (I sound like an American) and I really hope it will be beneficial.
My relationship with my mum - I have learned that the best way to deal with my mum is to give her a very wide berth. I know she loves me and that me and her having a good relationship is important to her, and I need to work on not letting her annoying lectures get to me and just get on with it. Also if I feel things are getting a bit much and we're gettting on each others nerves I need to get out of her way for a few hours. However that may be. Also I need to call her more when I'm at my house in Guildford.
My college work - I'm not really as behind as I thought. I have half a piece of English coursework to do and a big piece of media, but I've got all the info I just need to put it together, it's more a case of sitting down and gettng on with it continually for a couple of hours.
My friends - It seems recently my close friendships have all been detriorating. But what I haven't realised is that new close ones are forming. To be honest, it's life. I am lucky to have the friends I do, I'm not gonna focus on the ones I don't. While some are having major maturity problems at the mo, others are really coming through for me which is good.
My little sister - Man, she really is the most annoying kid on the planet. i love her to death, but she acts like a 7 year old and to be honest it scares me. She's starting to think about boys and stuff and in my opinion she's far too immature for all that sort of stuff. She's going to end up heart broken very soon.
Me and the way I think - I think a few more people have the same sort of problems and insecurities as I do. I need to stop thinking about them so much and get my arse in gear, focus on my exams and get a job to feed my addiction to clothes.
I think
That might just
Be it.
Sorry to anyone that read all of that. It was a waste of five minutes of your life. :)