is this what you want?

[sk8tznkiksass]

okay this is eating at me. why are you doing this to me? my whole life is fucked up, not a day goes by without me thinking about were you are or what your doing or if your okay and even if everyones treating you good. so nine days now? is it safe to say i'll never have you back in my life? or will you give me back everything that is amazing to me? it's hard to say i love you when i know you won't say it or even feel the same way back. i know i can repress you in my mind but you will never leave my heart =/ i guess alls thats left to say is thanks for the memories, there were more good than bad, and ill think of them every day. you cared for me when no one else would, you made me smile when no one else could, to me...thats love, and i know deep in your heart you love me too. you might call me a phyco but i call it caring about you like no one else can. i know that away from your cold heart and hatred of my love for you that you love and care about me too, i just wish you had the guts to say it =/ im sorry for all the bad times, i know it doesn't help much but my mistakes will haunt me the rest of my life. now call me what you want after you read this, obsessive, phyco, i don't care. i just can't, it's my feelings, do with them what you will.

btw; im keepin my promise. will you?