shot my glass face and see the truth

[sk8trdreams]

Its not that I fear. its that i know i will never beable to every again. its the worst of it all to know to be loved but not being able to love back. I dont know when i will beable to be trully happy again makes me kind of regret ever tring to be happy. Its you and only yours to be at fault right now its what i say to myself every night because i dont know how to feel anything anymore its not that i dont have crushs and feelings its that i have like A.D.D.D Attention deffecite datings disorder or what ever hehe i made it up its just i finally know what is wrong i just dont think i will every fix it. I just thought you all should know kind of the real me even if you dont believe its true or dont believe that i could be like this hehe well its true i do have a smile i do have a great additude towards life, but whats not said is the pain on the inside of a heart that is either cold or is still in the work of being built stage because love does not live there only feelings of care and friend ship but i dont know if i will ever love someone that loves me back every again i do love you all though it just a friend love though the love i dont think i will have is the love of the heart of a girl. i just need to stop suffering and just go out and have fun right........ meh i have done that kind of but i'm not giving up i am just up dating you all hehe yea well i am done for now hehe talk to you later bye bye

ALways Jason (master of the glass smile)