How my life seems to play out

[sk8trdreams]

NO matter what life i am going to lead I mean i have thought this out here it goes, I AM GOING TO BE ALONE for the rest of my life, that is it seriously no matter what out come i am always going to be alone, i could win millions of dollars and yet i would end up being alone, i would go home alone after a whole night of being around friend and such or so called friend and yeti truly will never be happy. It's a sad life really i could draw out all of what i would do and i would still go home alone, my life wont be happy it never will be gosh damn i am so destined to be sad and alone to walk thee earth as someone who will not be able to love someone who actually loves them back. my life is and always will be something that is sad and alone. Get the picture my life sucks. yet i dont see anyway of changing it. I just cant let go of the life i was going to lead with someone, of how great it was going to be for richer and for poorer and yet i cant be that life, its been almost four months and yea see how i have become. i cant do this even if i find a job where i can just be my self at i dont even know what that is. i dont know who i am, I dont know what I am, I am just lost and to be so honest and so nice i cant be with someone that will love me cause who is me really. I was one person once i was close to being who i am but once that feeling left i dont have that choice anymore. My destiny will always be alone maybe someone will come to my life where i can be that person again but as long as i am not who i am. then i wont be with anyone that can make me change so let it be know that these tears i shed at night and hide are the truth i will always be unhappy and alone cause my path is to walk alone.

Always Single Tear (Its all i am worth sometimes even less)