SHOUT OUT TO: KEN
Hey all! todays shout out is to Ken for taking me home today...
anyway, guys i need help...like, this is bigger than "wat to get lake for chrismas" kind of help, this is a relationship's life or death! aight, well, as many of you know, i love lake like crazyness...and he loves me (i think)...but thats the problem, im crazy about him and dont want to break up, but i dont think i'm happy tho...like, if he calls me, he doesnt even respect me enough to call when i'm awake, he'll call sometime after 10:30, even though he knows i'm probably asleep. But lately, he rarely calls me at all...for example, he called me on tuesday around 10:20...we talked till around 2 AM...then wednesday, i dont hear from him...thursday, i dont hear from him...so i decide to call. He answers the phone, and his cell has been messin up lately, so we get disconnected pretty fast...but he didnt call back...and he wouldnt answer when i called him back...then on friday, i didnt hear from him at all...and today, i called him about 8 tonight and he answered but he was out with his friends so he didnt want to talk (i'll get to that in a second). This is ridiculous though, why doesnt he ever call me anymore? He insists nothing is wrong, but my gut feeling is saying something is...and my gut's usually right...
Aight, and back to him being out with his friends...on thanksgiving, he came and picked me up (see previous entry for story) and we hung out, but he got grounded after taht so the following weekend we didnt get to see each other but for a minute after the game. Then, he got ungrounded, but got regrounded on tuesday for skipping football practice. Aight, well, we were supposed to hang out when he got ungrounded because that would have been like, 3 weeks...but when i called tonight, he was with his friends, while he was allowing me to be under the impression he was still grounded...hmmm....and this isnt the first time...a few weeks ago, he told me he went hunting and instead hung out with charles and matt and tha gang...well, i just gave him a piece of my mind tonight about how i wasnt going to put up with him being like this...but i dont think the message got across...i think he was high...
Ok, well, there are a lot of problems, but i still really like him and dont want to break up. I just wish he would either treat me like his girlfriend, or not expect me to be. Its almost like he wanted to take me off the market so no one else could have me, but he doesnt want to give me the time of day eihter. My mom has known him longer than i have and our friends are really good friends, and she says that everything will work itself out..but i dont know...i know he just wants to be a guy and hang out with his friends...and i want him to be able to do that...i dont want to control his life...but if he wants to be exclusive and all that bs, he needs to give me some attention...i really dont like the idea of sitting at home on friday night bc i'm not allowed to go out with my guy friends while hes "grounded".
madison, amanda, megan...all of yall have wonderful relationships with your boyfriends...i want that too...HELP!