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today was mediocre, spent most the day w/ family. it was hard to have a good time i've just been so stressed out from whats going on with beth to the 1,000$ debt i owe. so today was sort of a downer. then i realize that the money situation will get better in time, and as far as beth... i remember her telling me part of the reason she thought i didn't care was b/c i didn't try keeping her, i didnt give her a fight- so i must not have cared. when really i was too hurt to put myself around her at the time. i'm not giving up as easily as last time, unless she truly thinks it wont work out, i'll respect that. but i want her to know i love her and all i need is a contact # or some phone calls at least (b/c i dont know if she still has her celly), i try to stay optimistic aboot life but its hard sometimes.