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When you think you are on the verge of crashing down,
there is always someone, someway that you get pulled back up again
and given a second chance.
As you probably all know life has not been the easiest for me. Not by a long shot.
Its Tuesday mourning and i was just looking over my emails and i came across a mourning watch Jon had sent to us. I read it slowly and carefully. It got through to me for once!!! The song.
"I could run away
But You would never leave
You would always stay
Right by my side
Everything I've ever wanted
I've found in you
And I need you, Oh I need you
Every step of the way"
I could runaway but you will never leave me, i need you oh i need you.
ok there is something going on here, with this email and jeffs entry. Mmm i cant put my finger on it yet.
I dont get it! as you think you are going down with no hand to pull you up, there is wlays that once hand that sticks out to you the most. In my case my friend Steve.LAst night he said things to me that accually made me felt really good. I took this hot bath and i somewhat babyed myself but with alot of thinking, thinking deep and hard and not finding any solution, but when i came down stairs to say night to steve meanwhile he said something to me before we left... something no one really ever said to me "all icare about is you going to school tomorrow, idont care if you dont talk justs eeing your face will just make my day and it will assure me that you are ok because everytime im not with you im afraid it might be the last time i will see you" WOW! not much to say to that but i am seriously blessed with a great friend! He is some that doesnt belive in god or any of that stuff yet but hes a friend to die for. Then theres Jeff, we may not talk much online and phone heh we dont bother lol. But his entries get through to me, the ones about god and faith and all. i just read his.
" just let the sprit lead ______ (insert earthly activity, or life situation here)
because He is the only one who knows where we're supposed to be, where we'll end up, and how to do it right."
But does he know? I mean think about it, does he really know where we will end up in life? and does everything happen for a reason?
but things have been bad
last night i told my mom i decided not to belief anymore belief in god or anything.. my faith is low.
but as the night went on, something happend.. I WAS HAPPY AND I DONT KNOW WHY! i came down stairs smiling and giddy. Thoughts at not believing im gaining seconds on. 2nd thoughts at, "is there a god?"
well i have to get going to school now.... but think....
"have you ever gotten pulled out of a mess when everything just went down? and you see no one nearby to help but then one hand out of no where appears.? i still dont get it lol.
well bye bye xoxoxoxoxo
-Stace
there is always someone, someway that you get pulled back up again
and given a second chance.
As you probably all know life has not been the easiest for me. Not by a long shot.
Its Tuesday mourning and i was just looking over my emails and i came across a mourning watch Jon had sent to us. I read it slowly and carefully. It got through to me for once!!! The song.
"I could run away
But You would never leave
You would always stay
Right by my side
Everything I've ever wanted
I've found in you
And I need you, Oh I need you
Every step of the way"
I could runaway but you will never leave me, i need you oh i need you.
ok there is something going on here, with this email and jeffs entry. Mmm i cant put my finger on it yet.
I dont get it! as you think you are going down with no hand to pull you up, there is wlays that once hand that sticks out to you the most. In my case my friend Steve.LAst night he said things to me that accually made me felt really good. I took this hot bath and i somewhat babyed myself but with alot of thinking, thinking deep and hard and not finding any solution, but when i came down stairs to say night to steve meanwhile he said something to me before we left... something no one really ever said to me "all icare about is you going to school tomorrow, idont care if you dont talk justs eeing your face will just make my day and it will assure me that you are ok because everytime im not with you im afraid it might be the last time i will see you" WOW! not much to say to that but i am seriously blessed with a great friend! He is some that doesnt belive in god or any of that stuff yet but hes a friend to die for. Then theres Jeff, we may not talk much online and phone heh we dont bother lol. But his entries get through to me, the ones about god and faith and all. i just read his.
" just let the sprit lead ______ (insert earthly activity, or life situation here)
because He is the only one who knows where we're supposed to be, where we'll end up, and how to do it right."
But does he know? I mean think about it, does he really know where we will end up in life? and does everything happen for a reason?
but things have been bad
last night i told my mom i decided not to belief anymore belief in god or anything.. my faith is low.
but as the night went on, something happend.. I WAS HAPPY AND I DONT KNOW WHY! i came down stairs smiling and giddy. Thoughts at not believing im gaining seconds on. 2nd thoughts at, "is there a god?"
well i have to get going to school now.... but think....
"have you ever gotten pulled out of a mess when everything just went down? and you see no one nearby to help but then one hand out of no where appears.? i still dont get it lol.
well bye bye xoxoxoxoxo
-Stace