life, to many things :-O
- - - >> L-I-F-E hows it been? Its been on the edge.....
i dont know how fed up i am with everything but i am pretty fed up with everything that surounds me.
.... School, i have been failing.... although i got my lucky 84 today on my sci test, but everything else in school has been goin down hill...... my teachers dont understand when i say i need help on something.
.... Home, my mom and i have been fighting alot,but i have been doing my own thing to not have any contact with her
.... Sunday i went hiking with my friend, steve it was fun we found our place!!!! a feild of rocks!!! woot woot... it was peaceful, we climbed alot.... and we were sitting on top of a rock, just listening to mother nautures voices.....
TODAY.... i came home went outside and played soccer than tanned then came in danced and worked out.... i was up and about today... thank god for that!!!
But last night.... i had talks, one with Jeff.... he talked to me about stop searching for God hes already here.... let him search me out... and then there was Jon clark... we were talking about what faith means to me, it was sad.... because i never thought about what it accually means to me, so i didnt know. i was just blanking out. Faith.. i need faith in god... i dont have to feel or see him to have faith, but its hard... to have faith in something if you dont see or feel it .. my faith is running low right now, i cant let it... i need god right now... not for me but for a friend... a friend that can hurt himself and that can bring me down with him... ( not fun )!
I wish i wasnt going through so many things at once, why does it have to be hard? why cant i get to the chase and help the people that need help, and stop thinking about myself.
i cant stand life!...... everyday its getting harder and harder, and everyday i am seeing less and less of what is layed out in front of me.
let the answers apear to me....
the questions Jeff wants me to think about, i can think but how will i know if im thinking in the rightt direction?
you think hes not there. is it because god has simply not done what you want him to do? keep you comfortable?
i always thought my eyes werent open wide enough to see things but then i found out its all a figure of speech.... can this time of my life fly over yet? ( gosh i hate being 16 !!! )
i need a break from everyone and everything... just me alone, just away far away.... so i can be nonexsistant to humans.
giving up is not an option as jeff assured me last night, i am close to tho.. i am trying to stay strong b/c i dont think my friend can afford me going down as low as he has already gone...... he needs me and i am willing to stay strong.
( this is the rightt thing rightt )
.... what would you do if you were in a situration like this with your friend ?....
well ok im out im tired and i dont feel well... night night
im outtie!
{any advise to help me help a friend please leave one}
if not then pray for him... see if God will listen to all of you.
:)
i dont know how fed up i am with everything but i am pretty fed up with everything that surounds me.
.... School, i have been failing.... although i got my lucky 84 today on my sci test, but everything else in school has been goin down hill...... my teachers dont understand when i say i need help on something.
.... Home, my mom and i have been fighting alot,but i have been doing my own thing to not have any contact with her
.... Sunday i went hiking with my friend, steve it was fun we found our place!!!! a feild of rocks!!! woot woot... it was peaceful, we climbed alot.... and we were sitting on top of a rock, just listening to mother nautures voices.....
TODAY.... i came home went outside and played soccer than tanned then came in danced and worked out.... i was up and about today... thank god for that!!!
But last night.... i had talks, one with Jeff.... he talked to me about stop searching for God hes already here.... let him search me out... and then there was Jon clark... we were talking about what faith means to me, it was sad.... because i never thought about what it accually means to me, so i didnt know. i was just blanking out. Faith.. i need faith in god... i dont have to feel or see him to have faith, but its hard... to have faith in something if you dont see or feel it .. my faith is running low right now, i cant let it... i need god right now... not for me but for a friend... a friend that can hurt himself and that can bring me down with him... ( not fun )!
I wish i wasnt going through so many things at once, why does it have to be hard? why cant i get to the chase and help the people that need help, and stop thinking about myself.
i cant stand life!...... everyday its getting harder and harder, and everyday i am seeing less and less of what is layed out in front of me.
let the answers apear to me....
the questions Jeff wants me to think about, i can think but how will i know if im thinking in the rightt direction?
you think hes not there. is it because god has simply not done what you want him to do? keep you comfortable?
i always thought my eyes werent open wide enough to see things but then i found out its all a figure of speech.... can this time of my life fly over yet? ( gosh i hate being 16 !!! )
i need a break from everyone and everything... just me alone, just away far away.... so i can be nonexsistant to humans.
giving up is not an option as jeff assured me last night, i am close to tho.. i am trying to stay strong b/c i dont think my friend can afford me going down as low as he has already gone...... he needs me and i am willing to stay strong.
( this is the rightt thing rightt )
.... what would you do if you were in a situration like this with your friend ?....
well ok im out im tired and i dont feel well... night night
im outtie!
{any advise to help me help a friend please leave one}
if not then pray for him... see if God will listen to all of you.
:)