Dont predict the future
So after everything that just happened... ive been doing good looking at the positive knowing scott loves me just as much as always. ive gotten sad here and there due to the fact that i cant walk into his house quietly, scare him mom when im tryin to scar him and hug him and kiss him and say hi to his dad... its all different and its not my fault. i got brought into something i didnt need to and i knew i was going to get dragged into a fight eventually but im not the type to do that to someone i care about so it hurts very bad... i realized today i knew scott in july and when i shot my brothers ak47 i know i had a crush on him because i showed him the video, so weve been dating for 5 months but liked eachother for like 8 well anyways.. so 5 months yeah well there hasnt been a day where we havent like told eachother where we are usually its possible to atleast jump on fb but who knows so its 8pm and i havent heard from him all day. i called at 3 asked if he was home his dad says nope and i say ok thank you and he hangs up-whatever thats fine. so he has rehearsal for his play on thurs fri and sat but... it starts at 2. if theres anyone that still reads this live journal any more leme know your opinion. because the only thing i can think of is hes still at drama club but its 8pm. but then again im pretty sure his friend chris is in the play but he was online at 5 ish... maybe hes over chris's but why not contact me and tell me? so it just bothers me after all this time and his dad and mom gets in a huge fight with him then brings me into it and im the devil to them but all of a sudden.... even though everything is fine with me and scott... all of a sudden i dont know where he is? im just too used to that stuff happening when you think something is wrong but they say everything is fine then you get ignored. the worst, but i just dont see why this is going on but i know i will believe what he says. if he needs time thats fine but if he decides he cant do it.... well i can write really good heart break poems.
