AWESOME DAY
aww my babe's birthday. he's 18. i got him 4 pairs of silky boxers lol. today brian hutchins goes "so is jaimne still using you?" and i was like wtf!!! and hes like well it makes sense blah blah blah. and i walked out about to cry cause im fucking sick of people saying that. so morgan comes after me. (putting me first when she has problems of her own) and starts telling me about how it doesnt matter what other people say when they say that cause me and him know its not true and thats all that matters, she also tells me that brian is just looking out for me because he doesnt want me to get hurt. i understand where he's comming from and i can see why everyone would say that but i mean they dont see what i see and hes NOT using me. so morgan tells me what i should do to prove to everyone that hes not useing me; go a week or two w/o touching eachother and see if he still likes me. i dont know why i have to prove anything to anyone but i talked to jaimne about it and we decided on (at first) 1 month (january 11th cause he doesnt want it to be a month away from his birthday(weirdo)) then we decided sence hes gunna be gone all next week cause of his 3000 dollar cruise it will be easy and i said yeah and christmas vacation and hes like wait thats not fair its only like 3 days (i kno, what about the 11 days in january) so he said its gunna be the end of january but still starting today...2 months. damn i only want to see if he'll still like me omg its too long...i think it should be january 15 (hey we broke up jan.15 2004) but i d k. i love him a lot and im gunna miss him when he goes on his cruise on sunday...