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I'M GOING INSANE I DON'T KNOW WHAT I SHOULD SHOULD I CHANGE should i stay the same do i now sound insane
what do i do should i still try and change my self should i stay the same please tell me what i should and i will greatly thank u
what do i do should i still try and change my self should i stay the same please tell me what i should and i will greatly thank u
OK, so I know that everyone commented saying "do it for yourself! make yourself happy!"
Which, ya know, I'm all for, and crap.
But, I'll give ya my true, honest- to- G-d opinion.
So, let's see. Let's rewind to the first time I met you. Band camp. You just came from Danbury, and I didn't know you. I decided, Heck, I should get to know this kid, he seems outgoing and cool. And then I realized I liked you, we went out for a month or so, broke up, etcetera etcetera. But, you may ask, why did we break up? Numerous reasons that I just never really told you, I guess, for fear of hurting your feelings.
Numero un. The Drugs. Heroin, cigarette, etc. The works. Not cool.
Numero deux. The Alcohol. Self-explanatory.
Numero trois. ::thinks::
OK I decided I don't like lists anymore. So I'll write in paragraph form, being a good little english honors student and all.
So. When we were going out the first few weeks or so, I reallly realllllly liked you. And I loved discovering what you were all about; your personality and such. But finding out about the constant drinking and drugs... that didn't exactly set well with me at all. I've been pretty much straight edge my whole life-- I only drink wine on special Jewish holidays; always under the supervision of a parent or so. Anyways. Then the sudden outbursts of anger when you got agitated or frustrated with another person sort of annoyed me. I felt embarassed for you, even, once or twice.
Of course, the way you are and your habits and traits and personality do come in large part to your surroundings. And believe me, I know you've grown up in harsh surroundings. So I know bursts of anger and certain ways of what you do things cannot be changed, just mildly controlled, and that I understand, and always have understood. It's the drugs, alcohol, and acts of engaging in self-pity that you can definitely do without.
Anyways, I fully support you either way-- but of course, I support some ways more than others.
Keep your chin up, Bradley. I believe in you, and I know a bunch of other people love you and care about you and believe in you too, and we're all here if you need us!
xoxoxo, Jackie
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