stressed out
God I've been so stressed out lately. I'm so sick of everything going on lately, and even the stuff thats not going on. For one, I think I have OCD, and I'm pretty sure of it. I'm not going to go into depth about all that, but lets just say that my mind never stops, and that is a constant cause of stress in my life from day to day.
Then theres the fact that we've been having furloughs (days off at work without pay due to lack of work), because its been so slow lately. Thats really hurting us, especially since chris isn't working because he got laid off back in january.
The puppies are great and everything, but they're just stressful because of trying to train them well and everything and clean up after them and whatnot.
Work is stressful, because its hard and its killing my body it seems like. And I've been working on trying to take classes through work, but so far, I haven't got my final acceptance to do so yet, which is irritating. And thats going to cost me a lot, so I need money for that. Money is a big problem nowadays I guess.
Plus the fact that we were trying to plan our wedding, but without the money and everything, its going to be just shitty and I'm not sure if i want to go through with it or not. I'd like to say no, and wait till we have more money, but its not about having something big and fancy. Plus he could use the insurance and everything now, not later.
Plus, we have our fights now and then and that stresses me out to think that maybe this isn't such the greatest idea. But when I think about being with anyone else, I can't imagine it. I know we have our rough times and everything, and lately things have been really stressful and whatnot, but I know that it is all worth it. We've been through so many other times like this and came through, its just me. Lately I've been so stressful and I guess I have been taking some of that aggression out on him, which isn't healthy for the relationship either, =/...
And I'm so sick of the snow. I go out and we shoveled out my parking space in front of the house and everything. I had to run to my moms house for a few minutes, and in that time, some SUV took my spot. Probably someone over at the legion drinking or something since its fucking st. patricks day or whatever.
Yay, but i'm still not fucking 21, so i'm sitting at my house doing nothing, while everyone else is out having a life.
Thats another thing that bothers me I guess. I feel like my life is too boring and not exciting enough anymore. The "friends" i do have, never wanna go do anything or hang out. And the few good friends that I used to go out with and have good times with are either not talking to me anymore or so fucking retarded..
ugh , whatever.. i'm stressed
Then theres the fact that we've been having furloughs (days off at work without pay due to lack of work), because its been so slow lately. Thats really hurting us, especially since chris isn't working because he got laid off back in january.
The puppies are great and everything, but they're just stressful because of trying to train them well and everything and clean up after them and whatnot.
Work is stressful, because its hard and its killing my body it seems like. And I've been working on trying to take classes through work, but so far, I haven't got my final acceptance to do so yet, which is irritating. And thats going to cost me a lot, so I need money for that. Money is a big problem nowadays I guess.
Plus the fact that we were trying to plan our wedding, but without the money and everything, its going to be just shitty and I'm not sure if i want to go through with it or not. I'd like to say no, and wait till we have more money, but its not about having something big and fancy. Plus he could use the insurance and everything now, not later.
Plus, we have our fights now and then and that stresses me out to think that maybe this isn't such the greatest idea. But when I think about being with anyone else, I can't imagine it. I know we have our rough times and everything, and lately things have been really stressful and whatnot, but I know that it is all worth it. We've been through so many other times like this and came through, its just me. Lately I've been so stressful and I guess I have been taking some of that aggression out on him, which isn't healthy for the relationship either, =/...
And I'm so sick of the snow. I go out and we shoveled out my parking space in front of the house and everything. I had to run to my moms house for a few minutes, and in that time, some SUV took my spot. Probably someone over at the legion drinking or something since its fucking st. patricks day or whatever.
Yay, but i'm still not fucking 21, so i'm sitting at my house doing nothing, while everyone else is out having a life.
Thats another thing that bothers me I guess. I feel like my life is too boring and not exciting enough anymore. The "friends" i do have, never wanna go do anything or hang out. And the few good friends that I used to go out with and have good times with are either not talking to me anymore or so fucking retarded..
ugh , whatever.. i'm stressed